this body is mine

clocking back in to say i hit 89.2 lbs WOOOO i’m not even trying anymore. i just don’t eat as much and had a lot of sugars + processed food cut out since i’m no longer eating out all da time. having car restrictions and no money will do a number on you. i feel weak and foggy and my heart is easy to go up when i walk uphill but it’s ok <:) immm happyyyy. it just feels like a warm hug

been dealing with a crisis of feeling stagnant since achieving my bachelors got pushed back again. in my head i’ve been wishing for a reason to have these set backs because im too normal and fortunate to be struggling like that. now the universe has granted me that wish so now i got uterus pains and blood in my panties for non-menstrual reason so wow yay me 🎉

92.6 lbs …. alright ok. i will give myself some credit i cut down eating out tremendously now that im back with my parents. that’s a good start and im gonna make my way down to the 80s bc this low 90s crap feel heavy as fuck i cannot believe THIS was a gw when i started my acc

just peeped that looksmaxxing community was antiED like wtf we’re literally cousins and allies 😭💔? i HATE when genres get watered down and bastardized

i’m not going to get fat because i’m fucking lonely

found myself wanting to eat because i was bored. i couldn’t take it. i don’t like that. i know i want to eat to cheer myself up, i know it but that is not the way.

it gets real dark and lonely sometimes