I have been following your posts for a while now, and literally 6 weeks ago, I gave in. I have never dated men, only women, and am the dominant one sexually in those relationships. I hadn’t had a cock inside my pussy sine I was 18. (I’m 27 now).

But thanks to your blog, I downloaded Grindr, and later that day, my pussy was being railed raw in my garage like a cheap whore. The man had over a foot on me (I’m small, only 5’2), a thick 7” cock, and was married with a two kids my age. Originally I was just gonna suck him, maybe fuck with a condom to see what it was like. But then he pulled up in his truck, already hard, and convinced me to just do “some raw rubbing”, promising to put on a condom before he slipped in. I’ve read enough of your posts and stories that I should’ve known better.

Because of our height differences, I was straddling him in a spare kitchen chair in the garage, and my feet didn’t touch the ground. He slid me back and forth on his hard, cheating cock, and I was powerless to do anything when he fully slammed to the hilt in me. He told me “might as well continue” because he was clean, and then started using me like a toy. It kinda hurt tbh, but I was so far in that I didn’t stop him.

Because I have been on T so long, I figured it’d be fine if he came inside me, but I didn’t realize I’d feel him cum. It was warmer than I thought it would be, and he told me “better book that abortion appointment now” when he was finished, and then just left after snapping a photo of my pussy dripping his load.

I can’t stop thinking about it, but I’m also scared. I was cramping for 24 hours after he rearranged my guts. And now I’m worried men are gonna be turned off by me having a dick, even if my pussy is fully functional and there.

God, "better book that abortion appointment now" is a beautiful thing to say to a "boy" who just found out how it feels to take a man's cum. It's not quite my style, of course - I'd go with something like "name it after me" - but what a way to remind you that even after a decade of transition, when a man uses your pussy, you're left wondering if you're going to grow his next child.

Even if you don't get pregnant, though, it's not possible to take cock like that without it changing you, is it? You've come so far in your journey, and now - after a man lied to you, used you like a fleshlight, emptied his balls in you, and taunted you afterwards - you're wondering if you want to go any further. You're scared that you might go past the point of men wanting to use you as easy pussy.

You said I should've known better, from reading so many true stories here, when he didn't want to put a condom on - and yes, that's true. But that pales in comparison to what you should have known about what this would do to you. Submitting to cock. Being small, and full, and used. Feeling the warmth of a man's cum inside you, when he fills you up without asking.

Your body knows better than you. Your body knows that, despite your protestations, you'll come around eventually. Nine months is a long time. As you swell and incubate, as your walk becomes a waddle, as your breasts engorge, as hormones flood your brain with warm maternal feelings, your body knows that you'll submit to your fate. Women always do.

Anon, I need you to know I've been thinking about this ask constantly since you sent it in. And it's been driving me wild. Especially that second part 🥵

There's something so, so hot to me about how given the chance my body would go through the motions of pregnancy automatically. My instincts and my body and my womb don't care what I want at the end of the day, all my biology cares about is getting bred and swelling with babies. Even to the point that it deeply turns me on in such a feral way even though I don't logically want any of it

i’ll also use ftm in my name, usually either “ftm slut” or “free use ftm”

sometimes i’ll put misgendering in my bio but a lot of guys bring it up anyway when they dm me

but i say to just put all your kinks right there in the bio so you get the right kind of guys!!

good luck, grindr is sooo good for finding men into fakeboys. there’s literally so many straight men who go on there specifically looking for girls like us 🥰

Being forced to repeat phrases

“I am a female.”

“I find power in being a woman”

“I love my breasts”

“My breasts exist to provide milk for my children”

“I love my womb and my divine femininity”

“Pretending to be a man is a disgrace to all women”

i’d do anything to get my mouth on it. i can just imagine how cool my tongue would feel against her angrily aroused pussy. so warm, pulsating, and just aching to be touched.

i’d start by slowly tracing my tongue over he pussy lips, nibbling on them, gently tugging with my teeth. then i’d lick stripes from her tiny asshole to the tip of her hungry clitoris, up and down until she’s squirming and moaning and trying to buck her hips to feel more of my tongue.

i’d finally shove my tongue inside her soaking little cunt, so tight i can feel it stretching just from that. i’d grab her hips and make her fuck herself on my tongue as she desperately gribs the back of my head and grinds down on it.

Their penis would naturally fit inside my vagina and with some movement, the penis would ejaculate into my hole and I can then become pregnant because I have a uterus. Like screw labels, science and the universe made me so I can take sperm, not make it. I'm SUPPOSED to become pregant, I'm SUPPOSED to be a hole ready for cock, I'm SUPPOSED to be filled with sperm because the universe made me this way.