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eventually got out of the service, became a Police officer and got married with kids. Just about 10 yrs into marriage, the internet was just starting and interracial porn was my favorite. I would fuck my wife and we would be watching black men fucking white girls. I would ask her if she was attracted to black men and if she ever want to fuck a black guy with those massive cocks. She said that she really wasn't into black guys but was ok with us watching interracial porn. Then yahoo messenger came out. There, I started chatting and jerking off with black men on camera. It was incredible.

My very first gay encounter was with a black guy I met on messenger. Him and I would jerkoff all the time on cam. At this time, I was 30ish, a police officer and in the best shape of my life. I thought I had a smoking hot body, pale skin, and hardly no body hair. He was prob 15 yrs older than me, chubby, with an 8inch, thick black cock, cut. After jerking off one morning, he asked I I every want to come to his house and stroke in person. Wow, my heart was racing like a girl on a first date. I said sure, just jerking off? Ok. We always talked dirty to each other while camping. Me telling him how I'd like to suck him off and have him fuck my boi pussy. Him telling me how he'd like to make me swallow his load and fuck me from behind.

I cleaned myself up, inside and out although I only planned on jerking. It just made me feel good. We met in a Kroger parking lot in Ypsilanti Michigan. I was working undercover in the PD so I had a UC car. When we met up, he got into my car. We we're just sitting in the front seat talking. We really knew a little about each other. I asked to see his cock in person. He showed me and I said let's go to his house. When we arrived, I was nervous and excited. We went into his living room, his wife at work and children grown, he said we had a few hours. He got naked right away and asked me to do the same. He Put on some interracial porn where a large balck man was with a twink white boi sucking on a 10inch cock. He asked me if this was ok. Then he said, it must be because your hard and leaking already. I sat on the floor. He sat in a chair and asked me to crawl over to him. His hardon was spectacular in person. Standing straight up. I grabbed ahold of it and started stroking him. He started to moan and breath heavier as he started leaking.. he asked me if I liked touching black man's cock. I barely said yes, I couldn't quite speak it. He said that I could kiss it if I wanted. I looked up into his eyes and gave it a kiss on his purple head. He was about 8 iches with a shaft the was about 5 inches around and a purple cock head that was bigger. I just kissed up and down his shaft to his nuts and back up. This was the first time I ever had a man telling me to don't his. I was so hard. He then told me to put his head in my mouth and see if I liked it. I did, still looking up at him. His eyes rolled and his head went back and he moaned. He tasted amazing. I took more and more of him into my mouth. I stroked his shaft with my hand but he took my hand away. He placed his hand on the back of my shaven head and pulled me to him. He did soft thrusts and I just sucked harder with a suction. His breath was getting heavy like I had seen on the cam. He told me that he was going to nutt and asked me where I wanted it. I just sucked harder. He said, good in a whisper. He continued to fuck my mouth and I used a harder suction. All at once he said that he was going to and told me I could swallow it or spit it. His cock got harder and his balls got tight. I continued to suck until I could feel warm squirts of semen in my mouth and throat. Maybe 5 or 6 spurts. Enough to fill my whole mouth. I tried to swallow it while he was still cumming and he shot a spurt in my nose and eye. He looked down at my smiling. He said that he needed that. He told me he thought I was sexy down there. I continued to nurse his cock as he made sure he milked every drop into my eager mouth. I felt accomplished. I still had a hardon leaking.

After, we relaxed for a bit. I enjoyed the taste of him in my mouth. He said that he was going to get some water and asked if I needed any. I just shook my head. I want his taste for away. We watched some of the porn. He went and got a blanket and we snuggled on the floor watching these white Bois sucking cock, swallowing cum and getting fucked. I was turned on the whole time. We were laying on our sides. He lay behind me snuggling me tight so I could feel his cock. He had his arm over me stroking my soaking cock. He asked softly in my ear if I enjoyed having his cock in my mouth. I told him yes, but I was just a virgin. He snicker, you'll get better, just takes practice. I could feel him getting hard. He was thrusting softly btw my firm cheecks. I could feel his belly on my back, soft. His cock was rock hard and getting wet already. He whispered again that he wanted to fuck my. He said that my ass was driving him made. I told him that I was a virgin and he has a big cock. He told me he'd go slow and would stop if his cock hurt. The only thing I had ever had in my ass was one of my girlfriends fingers, which wasn't bad, but did hurt a little. He continued to rub his cock on my ass crack and I push into him to feel it. He called me baby right then. He then got up and got a condom. It was a "magnum". He asked me to put it on him, so I did. I remembered what my neighbors condom looked like so many years before. He was rock hard and leaking precum leak a ship with a hole. I rolled it on but he stopped me half way. He said that this way he could feel my pussy better. He grabbed some lotion for lube and put it on. He told me to get on my hands and knees. He positioned himself behind me and pushed his extra-large head into my still virgin flower. Fyi, it hurt. He went super slow and it hurt. I could feel his cock head just get in me. It burned a little and I asked him to stop. He pulled out. I said ok, and pushed my ass back into him. He kissed the back of my neck and whisper, are you sure. I just pushed a little harder. I was completely limp at this time due to the pain. He entered my slowly. His cock was so hard. I felt his head, oowee, then I could feel his shaft on the sides of my sphincter. He said he was about an inch and n and almost past the painful part. I pushed again and felt him filling inside my womb. I'm not going to lie, it was kinda painful. He was gentle and very good. As he started fucking me I could feel him going deeper. I felt like a total gurl, thinking of how I looked just taking his black cock. I wanted him to cum so bad. He thrusts were as deep as he could get. His heavy balls were smacking mine. I started to feel something inside me that felt incredible and I got a hardon. He reached around me and stroked my little cock.. I was so hard and he felt so good inside me. Hitting a spot that felt like I was going to pee. I was getting faint and breathing heavier. He spoke to me like a girl. "That feels good baby, you pussy is so tight, you have a perfect body, your going to make me cum, that's ok baby, let loose and have your orgasm". As I was, his thrusts touching what I now know is my prostate and him stroking my little penis. I just exploded semen all over the blanket for the most amazing orgasms I ever had. He started to get harder and thick and pulled out of me, pulled his condom off and came all over my back, ass and boi hole. We we're both spent and just laid on the floor. Me with seman all over myself and him breathing hard and kissing my kneck telling me how much he loved fucking me. What a day.

1) I love to suck a black mans cock. Ive really only been attracted to black men.its just the way they carry themselves.

2) I've always been attracted to black women as well. I love women just as much as black men.

3) love my self enforced chasisty. Helps with workouts, keeps my mind clear, makes me feel submissive and keeps me from constantly masterbating.

4) love dreaming if being a sissy, but being married, probably won't happen, but I still wear panties.

1) No excessive masturbating

2) more energy working out.

3) weight loss

4) constantly aroused

5) more effort in trying to achieve sissygasm

6) feeling sexier all the time

7) checking out more black men's packages in public

Once in college I had dozens of girlfriends. I really got into buying gay erotica books and stories. I loved to visit porn shops and look, go in booths and jerk of to videos. One of my girlfriends in college was kind of a sex freak too. The night I met her, she still had a boyfriend but she told me over and over that they were breaking up. I was a friend for a while, still trying to make it more. A couple of times she would come over to my place after fucking her boyfriend and tell how bad he treated her after cumming inside her. We would snuggle and I would rub her stomach and ass to make her feel better. One night, I heard a knocking at my door around 2am. It was her, drunk, recently fucked by her boyfriend several times that night, according to her. As I rubbed her stomach, she started kissing my neck. I reminded her that she had a boyfriend and had just fucked him. She didn't care and she grabbed my hardon. She told me that obviously I didn't care either. She took her top off and ask me to give her pussy and little kiss. I started to kiss down her stomach hoping that she hard wore a condom with her boyfriend. I got to her cotton undies and they were soaked with semen. I could smell his cum mixed with her vagina juice. She just continued forcing me to her pussy. I pulled her cum soaked panties off and started eating her. She still had most of his semen up in her and it started to run out on to my tongue. I slurped it all up and brought her to her first ever orgasm. She couldn't believe how great it felt. We fucked and sucked all night. I was her side fuck for another 6 months. She would always come over with her boyfriend's cum still inside her so I could clean her up and bring her to amazing orgasms. She eventually broke it off with him and dates me. She kinda treated me like a cuck though neither of us knew what that was. She would sometimes call me a fag while I was giving her oral sex. Reminding me of all if her boyfriend's loads I ate. I would be so hard while she told me this. She ate my cum and I ate hers. We eventually went separate ways.