CTY Anonymous

lan 18.2 forever !!! s/o to the gayble, my wonderful fiction and poetry class, and everything about the special and wonderful place that is cty !!

melody, james, elena, rowan: i know our time was short, but you guys are rly the best. thank you so much for just everything.

seeing the sessions start and end doesn't make me sad anymore. i don't know any of the names on here anymore. i don't miss cty anymore, just the people. i think this is closure.

Although this is my second year at CTY and I have 3 to go, I can’t help sink into this PCTYD and these are the moments where I wish that I had my awesome CTY friends to appreciate the home that CTY has built for everyone.

19.1 car royalty gonna b so lit tho

It’s been a year since we met and six months since we talked. I hope all is well, but I need to forget you and I wish I could do it more quickly.

i’m coming back home to you!!! i see you in less than three days and i am so so excited to see you all again but at the same time i can’t say goodbye to session 1 :[

love yourself

only 382 miles apart yet i feel like there are oceans between us. i miss you so, so much. i found myself in your shy smiles, the walks to night class, our childish footraces, even in the quiet scribbling of the pen i wish i stole from you. but i have lost myself, because i've lost you.

i'm sorry i didn't go to passionfruit with you.

i remember the day i watched your suitcase roll away because i couldn't bring myself to look up and know i'd be seeing your smile for the last time

i miss cty. it's been two summers now? and it all seems so far away but my heart knows it was the realest thing of my life. i just want to reach out and touch the smiles in the dining hall, sun-warmed concrete, right-foot-first, "cloud watching," muffled laughter in the dorm after lights out, bad days, good days, the taste of strawberry kiwi lemonade just leaving my lips.

thank you for making my last sunset in los angeles so beautiful. even the breeze that night was softer and i think the city lights dimmed for the three hundred of us dancing, crying in the pavilion

i wonder if you know you were my first slow dance

do you recommend fast paced high school physics? @lan or anywhere

the moment i realize that this is the last year im going to cty is going to be heartbreaking. how the hell am i going to fill up my summers now? i regret not choosing the courses i wanted to take bc ?? the people who i would have been in the same classes with?? and imagine, what if i went to lan as soon as i could? or imagine if i committed to car each year? what if? at least i figured out i was gay at lan lol

it makes me sad to see that this blog has fallen out of use