CATBUNFP

sometimes i compare myself to my idols a bit too much (for example kittydog, certain hungarian ranters/youtubers, authors, and also certain people in my environment who i look up to, and more but yea it aint their fault at all, simply just having some issues w my self image) and sometimes wish i was a different person than i am (JUST LIKE MY IDOLS) but the thing is that shaming myself too much actually DOESNT HELP ME IMPROVE. and the thing is that my idols ARENT "perfect people" either so i shouldnt be ashamed.... and i still have a lot of time to improve myself more actually. while its good to have goals in life for the future, it still doesnt mean i "suck" just bc i aint there yet. i should also known that EVERY SINGLE HUMAN IS DIFFERENT AND THAT WERE ALL HUMAN BEINGS AND MAKE MISTAKES. and being a good person means wanting to change for the better which is already true abt me too. and i shouldnt really worry about what others think of me too much either, it usually doesnt define me PERSONALLY that much... so i kinda should stop idolizing others too much + stop comparing myself, even when its only because my personal goals are similar to theirs, because it can actually prevent me from being my authentic self too much, while i should simply just be the artist i am AND ALSO IMPROVING MYSELF STEP BY STEP ACCORDING TO THE GOALS I WANNA ACHIEVE.

there may be some butthurt immature ahh people in the art community who feel like their "homes are invaded" over others opinions or thoughts of them cuz they rely on validation so hard and are too hypersensitive abt things to handle it in a CALM WAY at least (cuz they lack self reflection and EQ) but at least i know better than allat and still dont let my authenticity rot even worse than milk just because of others pathetic words like ppl needa stop seeking too much validation cuz it just proves how insecure they are, it doesnt even look strong. (side note: i think underdeveloped Fi sucks lmfao)

no one will ever understand me so i better move on and just accept it

lol i dont care abt social media as much anymore, i simply just wanna post some art and thats all, im not an object for anyone to use. 🙃🙃🙃🙃