@crystalshinee

When you said "You can tell me anything"

Because whenever I opened up 

I regretted it later. 

Should I claim you "mine"? 

When you said " I'm all yours" 

Because whenever I claimed 

They left me with shattered pieces.

Should I love you with all of me? 

Knowing that maybe you'll back off 

I give up

I give up on you

And i give up on us

I cant keep fighting or begging

For people to stay

And loose myself

Everytime someone leaves

I cant keep loosing myself

that we didn't see 

i had too many demons 

you thought to ignore 

it ruined everything we built 

so i was left all by myself 

but now it's me and my demons 

that i won't ignore 

i'll face them head on 

and remold my soul 

there were so many red flags 

that i can remold 

We don't always have to talk 

If something is troubling you 

and you don't feel like talking 

that's all right 

Is it okay if we just lay silently by each other's side? 

This way, you'll know 

that even without words I'd still stay by your side 

Maybe I could gently caress your back or your hair 

if you like? 

Just to calm you down 

This way you'll know 

I want you to feel that you are not alone 

This way, you'll know

I heard him laughing,

His eyes filled with sparkles,

And his smile gave butterflies to my stomach.

I was startled by the presence of him,

Aura so different i have to admit,

A face so bright I never wanna miss,

The view of him.

Him and I have a world in my head,

The story so marvelous it can't be said,

Such fairytales are never meant to spread,

A love so secret for the rest to unread.

I could only dream of us in there,

That hour felt the best in the rare,

Eyes on him, mind on him

I was stuck in his square,

All the time I wished if he was aware,

for the text you sent

i saw the first word

and couldn't read the rest

i knew you too well.

in just 24 hours

admiring you from a distance...

as you glow in the spotlight.

And I secretly await

for this luster to dim down

to meet you at the node,

i wrote a lot that day 

after you left 

i had so much to say 

and no one who would listen 

i was upset 

i was angry 

every thought on my mind 

was screaming at you 

but i held myself back 

because it wouldn't make a difference. 

and holding it inside me 

broke me down even more 

i wrote until i couldn't anymore 

i had to lie down 

i never knew mental hurt 

could translate physically 

everything was hurting 

what is wrong with me but i wasn't sick 

except the thought of you 

the thought of you made me sick 

but i couldn't stop thinking 

what is wrong with me

it was that day i realized 

how much hurt 

one person can give