Crystalized thoughts

My favorite loser was me when I realized that nothing could ever break me as much as my own expectations from people, my own care for them realizing that people won't ever care for me, my sensitive heart and my aching soul that keeps memory of all the trauma it went through and relives them again and again. I ruined my own self and now I can't get back to person I once were.

What doesn‘t kill you makes you lose your hobbies.

For forever it seems

My heart is heavy with thoughts of you. Like a waterfall, my emotions plummet into a deep pool. There they gather, gaining intensity, pooling in their passion. Swirling, twirling, causing me to gasp and sigh. I say my heart is heavy, but do not mistake it for a bad thing. Nay, precious one - quite the contrary. It is a delightful heaviness, a grounding weight, one that makes me feel alive and full of joy. Oh, how I revel in the depths of my feelings. How I revel, in the depths of you.