Crushes.

HAHAHAH ITS STILL A MESS AS USUAL

alright so first of all apparently 3 of my close friends have a crush on me and they all claim they’re gonna win me over but at this point im enjoying being single so im over it. THIS IS LONG CAUSE YOU ALL KNOW I RANT FOR THE LONGEST

anyways lets start of with the guy that I like. so we stopped talking for a while but when we did talk itd be me confronting him or him triggering me causing me to go off on him..... lol i hate myself. so like the last day of school he truly triggered me for a dumb reason bUT at the time it wasnt dumb sooooo yeah. our “relationship” (not really we never really dated although we did admit once that we liked each other and had liked each other since before we truly started talking) was kept a secret from our friends cause we have hellaaaaa mutual friends until that day. keep in mind that we started talking in October 2016 and this happened May 2017 (FUCKING 7 MONTHS AND I STILL WASNT OVER IT, and now its been 10 months and im still not over it. that has to be a sign, right??) anyways my friends were shooooook except for the one i told 3 months after it started. so anyways the five friends that were there had all told me about him talking to this one freshman girl (he was a junior i was a sophomore) and i was mad cause he randomly stopped talking to me when everything was great. he tried to blame it on me cause he said he thought my guy best friend liked me (which actually turned out to be true but thats another story) and he thought i liked him too but i didnt cause i liked him NOT my best FRIEND. so anyways for a while i saw him walking that girl to class something he rarely did with me but like i wasnt mad cause we wanted to be low key. BUT LIKE EVERYONE KNEW HE WAS TALKING TO THAT GIRL AND SHE HAD HIM ON HER BIO FOR A WHILE. anywayssss im getting heated. so yeah i was pissed and told him that day in front of our friends while everyone just watched. and then he decided to tell me that she was a waste of time and he never even liked her at all but her friends told him not to lose her and shit cause she has a nice body or wtv. anyways i didnt want more attention than what i already had and just ended it and my friends were chill and acted like nothing happened except for the “you guys were talking this whole time?” and i was just like yeeeeeaaaahhh. so then later at midnight he texted me on sc and was like “so what did you wanna tell me?” and i was like “i think i said  what i needed to” and he just said “same i think so too” and i was like ???? and just didnt reply. LMAO WE DIDNT TEXT ALL SUMMER HES SO ANNOYING UNTILLLL.... his birthday was Aug 3rd i think and he never told me that but i find out through sc cause i posted something that day and was the first to watch and i saw the little cake. so i was like OHHHHH SHITTTTT and it took me 15 minutes to decide if i should text him or nah. soooo i did text him and he replied like 15 min after and and he was like “aww thx erika” *blushy face emoji & heart* BITCH I WAS SHOOK AND MY HEART WAS BEATING OUT OF MY CHEST I REALLY THOUGHT I WAS OVER IT. and i was just like No Problem its Ericka btw (cuz he knew i hated when ppl spelt my name wrong.) and he was like “sorry i wasnt thinking but feel free to call me whenever you want :) ” and i was like lol whattttttttttTTTTHHHHEEEEFFFFuuuUUcccKKKK so i got bold lowkey and just said “i’ll take that as an i miss you” and he was just like “lol yeah i really do” and i was just making noises at like 2 in the morning like wtf. and i forgot what i said after that but we continued talking throughout that day and he was replying slow asf as usual. and then he sent me an “lmao” and i didnt know what to say so i just opened it and then like 15 minutes later hes calling me and shit and i was busy talking to my mom planning a trip and at this point it was still the 4th at 1AM and my mom got mad cause he was calling me at that time BUT I WASNT EXPECTING IT so then she gave me a lecture and i was like alright gnn. so then i texted him and he asked why i didnt answer so i told him so he called me again and i was like wtf do i say but then like just FUCK ME UP DDY WTF HIS VOICE WAS SO DEEP ALL OF A SUDDEN I HAD TO CHANGE CAUSE YA KNOW and he hit me with the “hello” i was like bitchhhhh. then i just said “i heard you missed me waddup” and he was like “i missed your headass” i think im in love guys. but then like we talked for an hour and it was fun, no awkward moments, the convo was flowing it was great. we both said gn cause we both had plans in the early morning so i said gn and shit. then in the morning at like 7  he called me and i answered and he said it was accident but he kept talking and tried to start a convo but i wasnt interested cause i still had 30 minutes til my alarm rang and i was like gtg and he sounded hurt but he said it was an accident so idk what he was doing. and yeah i have a class next to his every other day but he has D lunch so hes never there when im out of class but every time i walk by he waves and smiles :)

damn that was long so ill make these short, so first my best friend and i were talking one day and he told me hes been liking me for a long time but he knew i liked the other guy and when he told me he had a girlfriend and i was like yo idk whats going on with you guys but i dont want to talk about feelings if youre in a relationship soooo he broke up with the girl and told me he was in love with me, keep in mind this happened late june when i thought i was over the other guy^^ but i also knew i wasnt. so i was like nah i cant talk to you if you just got out of a relationship so he was like alright ill wait for you to fall in love with me and hes always talked to me about his hookups and girls hes talking to so i found it weird ya know.  but everyday hed send me a cute long paragraph and i rarely get those mostly cause i find them annoying and dont like getting them often but idk after a while i fell for it and mid  july i started flirting back a little. one day i got bold late at night it was August 1st aka national girlfriends day and i was like “why dont you just ask me out” and at the time it felt right but i was so wrong. anyways he asked me to be his girl and i was like yes i will be your girl lmaooo. GUESS HOW LONG THAT LASTED? 2 DAYS MY DUDE WHY? BECAUSE 2 DAYS AFTER THAT WAS THE OTHER GUYS BIRTHDAY AND WHEN I REALIZED I STILL LIKED HIM A LOT i felt guilty so i told my now ex and he was chill like alright ill wait for you to get over it and i was like ummm its gonna take years at this point but okay. so umm i didnt cheat cause when i texted him i was already single soooooo #winning #team loyal anyways yeah he still likes me and i still dont fully like him back but we’re cool still and no one knows we dated so its no big deal.