Veronika

//I had a vision//

I'm raising my Tumblr account back from the dead with a birthday post. The mark of a new era for Veronika, if you will.

This is mostly for myself, because I've been feeling more and more creatively inspired and I want to give myself an avenue to express that.

Basically I just want to say that twenty was such a wild ride. Man I cried, struggled with wanting to die, had some of the best days of my life, met a bunch of new precious people, and learned to treasure those I have around me even more.

I've learned to do the thing even if the thing scares me. I let go of some beliefs I've had on myself, on love, on life, and on purpose. I've gotten to know myself more, and I realized that that shit is a bitch to accomplish.

I went through so much in my twentieth year, mentally, emotionally, and physically - and I’m still going through it all. When I look back, a lot of it was just me trying to get through one day at a time. It was painstaking. But I made it. And I couldn't be prouder of myself.

I know twenty-one is gonna bring all of that pain all over again, in varying degrees and in new ways. I'm scared out of my mind and extremely excited all at the same time.

I’ve kept a lot of things to myself because I prefer it that way, and I know it’s affected how I express myself in creative aspects. But my therapist said I should open up more, so here's me trying. I want to be able to express myself, in any way I can, without fearing the response I'm going to get.

I'm so ready to thrive.