control freaks

some people already projecting too much over some things that were said at the con yesterday. writers are on strike, they haven't even started writing the new season yet, the actors don't know anything! and if even if they did, how do you come to the conclusion that carlos is going to be a bad or distant husband to tk just because of the implication that he will change somewhat in the wake of his father's death? which was always kind of a given anyway.

omg what is that speedrun labor scene, she started having contractions, her water broke and she popped out the baby all in 10 minutes, this is hysterical 😭😭😭

something about carlos and tk's respective faiths influencing their vows and the way they think about their love for each other. carlos calling tk his miracle, traditionally a christian concept. and tk using the traditional jewish vows that liken the union of two souls to something holy. love as something sacred. a saving force, a lifeline. a miracle. soulmates as in literally companion souls, saving each other, holding each other afloat, in perpetuity.

thinking about tk's vows and how anyone who's struggled with mental health issues can probably perfectly understand what he means and how profound of a feeling that is. to feel that you're too broken for love or even to have a future, to feel wrong somehow, like you're a piece of a puzzle with a jagged edge that no longer fits anywhere. and then for him to say that being with carlos makes him feel whole. carlos sees him, all of him, with his jagged edges and faulty parts, his mistakes and his insecurities, and loves all of it. and he did since the beginning, since the first night he took him home, he saw something in tk that tk still couldn't see in himself, something he hadn't yet become. or maybe something he'd always been, the tyler in tk that only carlos could see. he saw him and through his eyes tk came to life in all of his utmost beauty. and to be actualized in the eyes and through the love of another, before you can even believe it yourself, is nothing short of holy. 'you are made holy to me, for I do love you as my soul'.

PLEASE someone with time and skills needs to do a director's cut of the episode and edit all the deleted scenes and moments in the actual episode so we can experience it all together

every deleted scene heals the heartbreak a little more