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Perhaps the saddest thing, Is that one moment, you’re in love, or you’re best friends, or you’re in a committed relationship, And the next; you’re just a nuisance, you’re blocked without any good explanation, you’re just another stranger. Or worse yet, you’re forgotten completely.

I’m moving on; as I miss you less and less each day. I soon realized my home was always within myself. For I will always be complete despite the damage you left me. So I guess this tragic goodbye taught me how to love myself more. Like the way I chose to be better, even if I’m on my own this time around.

Being upset about something you weren’t even sure you wanted is a most peculiar feeling. You almost feel ridiculous for the waves of disappointment washing over you and the tears prickling underneath your eyes. And for a moment you’ll just stand there, anxiously trying to convince yourself not to break down in the middle of a crowded hallway surrounded by people who have no idea that something is pressing down on your lungs and stealing every bit of air. Even though your hands are shaking and your eyes are dampening with tears that you refuse to let fall, you’ll force yourself to take a deep breath that echoes through your body. And of course, you’ll try to convince yourself that this doesn’t matter. And of course, it’ll be a lie. But is there really something so wrong with the desperate things we whisper to ourselves if they’ll stop our hearts from breaking?

Communicate. That’s the biggest and best first thing you can ever do. Whether it be with a teacher, sibling, friend, parent or even a counselor. Being able to communicate is the first step to your life getting better. It doesn’t have to be even talking; it can be a letter or email or text…let people know what’s going on in your life, your thoughts and emotions. People can and will help you, you just need to search them out. Oh and one last thing, never EVER let someone bring you down. You’re you, and you is always good enough. Never stray from who you are because you never know who will come along and want and love “you”.

“…And it breaks your heart, again after your heart was so broken that you thought it could never get any more broken. You thought it was safe, but it still, somehow finds a new way to break, because, even though you’re the one who asked for this, now that you’ve got it, you are completely adrift with no compass, or map, or sense of where to go, or what to do.”

“…And it breaks your heart, again after your heart was so broken that you thought it could never get any more broken. You thought it was safe, but it still, somehow finds a new way to break, because, even though you’re the one who asked for this, now that you’ve got it, you are completely adrift with no compass, or map, or sense of where to go, or what to do.”