For the time I went to the water park with "friends" and when the attendant put one of them in the back, because that's where the heaviest should be, she made me switch places with her because "obviously there was no way she was the biggest"
For the times I got anxious sleeping over at friends' houses when I didn't have my clothes because I knew their stuff would be too small
For the time I went to the lake with friends and after seeing the group picture where I was in the front, I had to go cry in my car for 10 minutes
For the boy who said he could never see me as more than a sister because he "wasn't into the cute, chubby cheek kind of girl"
For the time I rushed a sorority and when I didn't get in, my friend in the sorority went on to explain that they chose the final round by looking at Instagram and the biggest girls were the first to go
For the time I joking said to my drunk "friend" that the boy she thought was cute might just dance with me, and she gave me the dirtiest up and down look and said "yeah he would never"
For the times I got winded walking up stairs or walking a mile
For the "friends" who excluded me from events because I didn't "fit the aesthetic"
For all of the side eyes and "you're going to eat that" comments
For the boys who weren't into "my type" even though I'm already incredible and worth more than my weight
I say a big ole ✨Fuck You✨
And when I reach my goals, because I will, I can't wait to ignore all the "miss you" texts and go on living my life surrounded by people who genuinely care for me and valuing myself as I should.
Because my future is brighter than my past
Because I have goals I need to prove to myself I can achieve
Because this is a step that is going to help me enter into my new life
Because I love myself and know I can do better and deserve better
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