I hope your wings are big and fluffy

what do you mean OCD has run my life for like. The entire thing. What do you mean my belief system in my mind that only I belong to with a strict and specific code of conduct told to me through signs I’m constantly interpreting is OCD. What the hell is the deal. not only is OCD ruining my life I think but my entire life has BEEN OCD. One of my earliest memories is being in kindergarten and coloring a picture but having to throw the crayons in the air and follow the pattern they fell in to determine which colors I would use because I’m “not able” to pick colors for myself. I never could just color pictures like the other kids. I’ve always been haunted by the coin toss and the dice roll and in recent years the Wheel Spin App. If there’s something “I” “want” bad enough to attain it behind the Will of God’s back then that is “true me”. Where was I going with this. Why did I not learn that I have OCD until almost my 30s. I barely know at all who I am under the OCD. I don’t want to look