(ap) Moved.

okay, here’s the spiel: i have given the better part of two years to writing myr. i sat in tenth math class dreaming up face claims and how i’d try out a contained theme for the first time. i learned how to code (ish) and how to use photoshop because of this blog. i’ve developed skills both in terms of writing, editing and graphic-making. i had so much fun doing this.

it isn’t that rp isn’t fun any more. it isn’t that the people have changed or gone bad. i just need an indefinite break and a good, long rest. 

before i had anyone, i had you guys. i had and still have such wonderful friends here and that’s why i don’t want to leave. getting to know people, meshing my writing style with theirs, developing elaborate plots. it was the most fun i had in my life.

i’m not going to talk about feeling ignored or isolated or that i feel as if people have lost interest in me because it isn’t true. you’re all wonderful people, i just don’t have the time or energy to reach out like i once did. i’m sorry if saying that made anyone feel like i was ungrateful for all the love and support you’ve shown me over the past two years.

i know for a fact i’ll miss this blue hell. i know for a fact i’ll miss the wonderful talent and beautiful people here but i really do have to leave for a while. 

have lots of fun, friends. be good to each other and thank you so much for giving me the motivation to grow, write and for giving me the building blocks i needed to be happy.

my sk*pe’s moaningmemer, hmu if you want to keep in touch.

aka my life and yours are two parts of a whole

“I can’t do this without you.”

“Don’t let go of my hand through this, please.”

“If you walk away everything will fall apart.”

“All I want is your lips against mine right now.”

“It wasn’t just a one off for me; it was me hoping you’d see the connection.”

“We’ve been through everything else together.  This is no different.”

“You’re my other half.”

“There’s no one else I’d rather have with me than you.”

“You need to help me, I can’t do this alone.”

“I’ve never felt alone since you came into my life.”

“What am I supposed to do if you walk away?”

“This distance is killing me.”

“Don’t let this distance tear us apart.”

“I need you as much as you need me.”

“Letting go was never an option.”

“All the time did was make me realize that you’re supposed to be with me.”

“I’ve made so many mistakes, but you’re not one of them.”

“I need you to help me reach the top shelf.”

“Two people aren’t this made for each other so easily.”

“You’re worth any fight.”

“I’m crying on the floor and nothing’s right, but I know you can make this better.”

“I’m way too drunk to be driving, so I was gonna walk home– stay on the phone with me, okay?”

“There’s this couple’s contest, and I know we’re not dating, but the grand prize is this big ass load of food– help me.”

“It doesn’t matter if you need me; you broke everything.”

“Everything’s really shitty right now.  So how about you get in this car with me and we drive to wherever for however long?”

“I’ll go if you go.”

“I’ll only do this if you help me.”

“I can’t depend on anyone else, just you.”

“Thank you for always being here for me.”

“You could call be at any time and I’d drop anything if you needed me.”

“All you have to do is show me that you feel the same.”

“I know that I need you, but sometimes the feeling doesn’t seem reciprocated.”

“I’m pathetic, because I go to you for everything, but you’d pick someone over me any day.”

“Can you give me a ride?”

“I didn’t tell anyone else I was leaving… You deserved to know though.”

“I’ll still be here when you get back.”

“Isn’t in terrifying that we both couldn’t go without the other?”

“This ring proves that I’m always here for you.”

“Come here, let me give you a hug.”

“My date stood me up, can you come with me to egg his/her car?”

“My date stood me up, can you come pick me up?”

“The lights don’t shine as bright when you’re not here.”

“I can’t deal with us drifting apart anymore.”

“I feel like I’m gripping with all my might and you’re not even lifting a finger.”

“My friend locked me outside naked.  Help.”

“My friend needs to see I’m dating someone so they’ll stop including me in blind dates–yes, I know we’re not dating, but still.”

“I don’t call you my partner in crime for no reason.”

“Can you come over so I don’t feel so alone anymore?”

“You ran to get here this quickly?!”

“I need you.”

✚ for a kiss on a wound.

♕ for a kiss of swearing fealty.

✿ for a sweet kiss on the cheek.

♠ for a kiss that leaves a mark on the skin.

♆ for a kiss where there is a pulse.

ϡ for a kiss that lets you know I love you.

ღ for a kiss filled with passion and need.

† for a kiss to say good bye forever.

✄ for hateful kiss – gonna make you feel the scorn okay?!

“Oh yeah, shame me. At least when I’m disgusting it’s on purpose.”

“If you spend all day shuffling words around, you can make anything sound bad.”

“I can’t abide bureaucracy. I don’t like being told where to go and what to do. I consider it a violation.”

“I’ve got a thousand memories of your dumb little ass and about six of them are pleasant.”

“I’ve got an emo streak. It’s part of what makes me so rad.”

“What kind of business do you do in a garage? Y'know, this seems a little shady.”

“Wow. That is a really intense line of questioning.”

“I hate to break it to you, but what people call ‘love’ is just a chemical reaction that compels animals to breed.”

“I have no code of ethics, I will kill anyone, anywhere. Children, animals, old people, doesn’t matter. I just love killin’.”

“You’re young, you have your whole life ahead of you, and your anal cavity is still taut yet malleable.”

“I’m not looking for judgement, just a yes or no.”

“Well, then get your shit together! Get it all together, and put it in a backpack - all your shit. So it’s together. And if you gotta take it somewhere, take it somewhere, y’know? Take it to the shit store and sell it. Or put it in the shit museum, I don’t care what you do! You just gotta get it together.”

“You dumb, stupid, weak, pathetic, white, white.. uh-uhh.. guilt.. white-guilt, milquetoast.. piece of human garbage.”

“What about the reality where Hitler cured cancer? The answer is: don’t think about it.”

“Fuck you? No, no, no, no, no, fuck me!”

“My new catchphrase is ‘I DON’T GIVE A FUCK!‘”

“You’re like Hitler.. but even Hitler cared about Germany, or something.”