me as soon as I come to a horrifying understanding about how fundamentally fucked up my relationship to sex is: okay but what if it was shane hollander

the fact that there's not a proper hollanov btvs au is a tragedy. like shane and ilya with buffy and spike's s5-7 dynamic would be so good...... shane as the slayer trying so hard to be perfect hating himself for his attraction to this vampire...... ilya as the vampire who find himself obssesed with the slayer he wanted to kill originally...... ugh

I miss my parents (axmurph)

a fic I read just hit me with the jew-ish shane hollander.......... I love you

thinking abt ilya canonically having sex with his brother's girlfriend. kinda wanna write a fic where his niece finds out she's his biological daughter and comes to the us to escape her shitty dad

people make ilya and shane cry way too easily in fics. these are two emotionally repressed hockey players they would not cry so easily and shamelessly

people are showing interest in my pastry chef shane fic however what if instead I wrote. the antidepressants induced erectile dysfunction ilya fic no one wants

if no else likes. my post at least I have michael. shoutout michael