fine line

— Mary Oliver, Entering the Kingdom

leighton meester as blair wardolf. I'm determined to wear more blazers at uni this year.

Box with my photographs and poetry.

—Lucy Quin

❝I had understood gods could bleed, but I had never seen it. He was one of the greatest of our kind, and the drops that fell from him were golden, smearing his back with a terrible beauty.❞

went for a walk, petted a dog and completed an assignment that stressed me out for the past week. life is okay sometimes

SHADOW AND BONES CAST  Photographed on Kodak film by Freddy Carter

T. S. Eliot — Portrait of a Lady

you put me on and said i was your favorite

so I guess my 100 days of productivity are long over. I may have fell off the wagon with posting but it went extremely well. Still, I continue to learn everyday, just in smaller bouts, reviewing anki and watching Farsi videos, but it was an awesome exercise in diligence. I start grad school in a few weeks so hopefully I can transition this diligence into practice for school again. For now, I’ve been focusing on journaling. I do entries in French every now and again. I’ll endeavour to write an entry in Farsi sometime.

Never pray to the gods that answer after the dark.

19:55 — courage, dear heart is something i remind myself of every day. i may seem like i have all my shit under control, but it’s usually the opposite. it takes courage to be brave and repress the demons that pester the mind. mental illness is invisible, not impossible.

Alejandra Pizarnik, "Extracting the Stone of Madness" from Extracting the Stone of Madness: Poems 1962 - 1972