Now I'm up, from below.

She was keeping an ear out in case I needed her to call and fake an emergency.

Turns out, I was more upset over the 40 minutes before the date than anything else.

S had parked right next to me. And I thought that meant she had wanted to talk to me before my date. I was going to ask her to sit in my car with me while I fixed my hair/makeup and stuff and we could just talk. Yeah, no. That didn't happen. I waited for like 25 minutes and she finally responded to my text that she was still inside. So I left to go meet up with my date.

I met a coworker last month, and I just had this weird feeling in my chest. Not sure how to describe it... it was intense. Very intense and it took my breath away. I don't think I even introduced myself. Anyway. Everytime I think about it now, I have this weird feeling in my stomach. It's like I'm going to be sick from how intense it is, and like we were meant to meet. And at that instant.. my chest felt so full and like instant recognition?

Like there is some sort of connection there. We have so much in common, and she somehow reminds me so much of myself.

It's strange. I've never felt this before. Like, I just want to know more and more about her. Bond.

Now, I just want to spend more time with her. But also, don't want to talk too much at work either for other people to eavesdrop.