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+ bonus “Eric,you will not be naked in post-interview!”  😂

holy shit this boy. this brave, brave boy. within a couple weeks he’s come so far and IT’S SO IMPORTANT TO ME

because real talk: it wasn’t that long ago that he was stereotyping and trashing what he assumed was a gay man to jonas because he was so ashamed of himself and had such internalized homophobia/hatred that he felt he needed to make those types of comments. and of course it doesn’t help with his mother and how her beliefs have skewed his view of himself and the fear he must feel on that side of things. and then his insensitive comments to eskild, again, because he was hurting and hating himself for what he was.

BUT THEN. to get to a point where he can admit to HIMSELF and TO HIS BEST FRIEND that he likes a guy and that it’s okay to like a guy? and also has the courage to apologize sincerely to eskild too? oh my gosh my heart. he is so BRAVE and IMPORTANT and he came so far so quickly because he’s just that strong of a person.

and so many teens who are struggling with their sexual identity take years and years to get comfortable with it (which is fine! and valid!) but this boy took literally a couple weeks and I’m so proud of him. and you know YOU FUCKING KNOW his love for even was so important to him that he knew he couldn’t deny himself. you could literally see the point (pretty much after he spots even kissing sonja at the party) where his internalized homophobia is overridden by his heartbreak. and he knows that losing even is so much worse than being gay - it didn’t even compare. he decides it’s more important to be okay with himself than it is to lose out on the chance of love. because he wants to love even, and he can’t if he’s afraid to be gay.

and just. his internal struggle for weeks culminating in that act of pure motherfucking bravery and courage in talking to jonas - it’s so wonderful guys. it’s so amazing.

EVEN IS SO FAR GONE FOR ISAK THAT HE DREW ISAK A DRAWING OF THEM EATING CHEESE TOAST AND PLACED IT IN ISAK’S POCKET WITHOUT ISAK EVEN REALISING IM FUCKING -

AND THEN ISAK’S SMILE WHEN HE SAW THE DRAWING I’M -