Jonas

Redrew my Ganymedes design!

I fully pretend that the season 2 finale and everything after it never happened. I hate that everyone in this show is forced to be the thing they wanted the least at the start. if it was just vlad and jonathan being forced to accept their futures, that would have been so much better. Mina becoming a slayer when she thought it was lunacy, mr. van helsing being killed by the creatures he lived to kill, robin losing his interests/personality and his only friend all in a moment and that not being touched on, erinn being turned only to be killed off anyway, etc. all of it was so tragic and pointless and it made vlad's sacrifice less meaningful, less special, and more predictable. like, of course vlad gives up what he loves to live a life he hates- everyone else did the same thing. i kinda wish *that* was what he had been selfish with, or that the show got the end of season two as its tragic ending.

bonus

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.