Cozy Enthusiast 🌝

Forgot my journal back at home but this weekend was one for the books. Wedding planning has commenced and I can’t wait to fully share it with my loved ones. We celebrated so much love & Father’s Day! Thank you God for this life. Please keep me hopeful and confident in the love I give people & the love that they give me. I will live each day in gratitude- no matter the circumstances.

my earth, wind, and fire.

Even when clouds cover the sun, that doesn’t mean the sun is any less bright.

Sometimes I just needed patience long enough for the clouds to pass.

The same is true of God’s faithfulness.

Celebrated so much love this weekend. I love witnessing such beautiful love.

I love what I have. And I’m grateful for it. That’s it.

Back to Monday class, and I’m feeling like a weight has been lifted.

I haven’t been feeling my best with ballet. My last class, I almost fainted lol — so today felt like the exact reset I needed.

And then my new Typha package came, which felt like perfect timing. A sweet little reminder that joy can meet you right when you’re trying again.

Patience really is a dang virtue. And plus plus, DON’T RUSH TO BIG DECISIONS on high emotions lol

I have empathy for people who love something deeply, step away for a bit, and then return to it with a fresh heart. I think all the pressure around the performance was starting to get to me. But now, I feel more assured.

Step by step.

Focused on my training.

Returning with grace.

Today was another health anxiety scare day.

And still, my hubs took care of me with so much tenderness.

I prayed for this kind of love. For him.

For someone earthside who could make me feel safe, loved, and deeply cared for in a way that feels unconditional and undeniable.

And somehow, he keeps loving me even more each day.

Not just in the big moments — but in the quiet ones.

The anxious moments.

The vulnerable moments.

The moments where I don’t feel my strongest.

There is something so healing about being loved gently.

Sometimes I think about how much fear used to live in me. Fear of being too much. Fear of being hard to love. Fear of burdening others with my anger and anxiety.

But love - this love I need - has a way of softening those fears.

Not perfectly but steadily.

And through him, I feel glimpses of God’s care for me too. The kind that stays. The kind that reassures. The kind that says, “You are not alone.”

Jesus said:

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.”

— John 14:27

Tonight, I am grateful for love that feels safe.

Love that steadies me.

Love that reminds me there is still goodness here on earth.

Love yours.

Thank You, God, for the revelations.

I feel a new chapter coming — one marked by peace and grace. Not rushed. Not forced. Just… steady.

I was in a rut.

Grief, anger, and pride created a wombo combo of anxiety and sadness. I could feel it weighing on me, pulling me away from who You’ve called me to be.

But I’m reminded now: This branch is nothing without being attached to the vine.

As Jesus said:

“I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.”

— John 15:5 (ESV)

And I feel that truth in my spirit. A return. A realignment.

My spirit feels stronger now.

Not hardened. Not prideful. Just… rooted again.

Ups & downs - God’s grace is all around. I’ve been disheartened lately. Some things I’ve been processing and chipping forward with. I learned at church today that this sort of pain teaches courage. I’m still learning. This season of pruning takes time, and I’m being gentle with it. Not forcing it and not running from it. Really trying to take it in strides. Taking it to God.

We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.” — Romans 5

Grateful for many things & prayers are always up! We launched a new set at work this past week. We finally unpacked our hallway closets & guest bathroom. Put stuff in our downstairs storage. Finding moments of rest & recharge whenever possible.

My makeup vanity is coming this week, and I can’t wait. I grew up watching Youtube so this feels like a milestone. 🥹 can’t wait to play with my makeup even though I’m trying out a more natural look. I’m kinda digging the no lashes.