While the world is spinning

My aunt sent me a text today saying how proud she was of me for setting boundaries for myself. It's kind of hard to think about something like setting boundaries as a positive thing when at the time of setting them, it was out of fear and pain. Childhood trauma and emotional abuse is so weird. You realize you're doing certain things in life because you're subconsciously trying to not be your abuser. It can be as simple as washing laundry or cleaning the bathroom.

I've been really depressed lately and I think it has a lot to do with my job. The company I work for is being acquired and all the tasks I like about my job are being taken away from me. So, I applied for a couple new jobs. And I applied to take some classes at the community college, because I miss school. I'm hoping for some positive change in the new year.