What a Girl Wants

So Mother Nature is a bitch.  Let’s just get that out of our way before I start to explain my stance.  

Currently I am at the mercy of Mother Nature and boy she is being a real Mother.  I am hormonal, emotional, bloated, irritable, and yet I must continue with my life as if none of these things are occurring within my body.  I am looking for a job, trying to be presentable, dealing with tension headaches, struggling with medical conditions, and all while trying to smile and be polite and not burst into tears as yet another person smiles and takes my resume and tells me they’ll get back to me.  

And then, at the end of the day when all I want to do is unwind and relax a little my body sends another wonderful burst of hormones my way along with cramps.  I’m lonely and horny and emotional trash.  So, naturally I eat junk food, look for a movie that could hopefully be romantic without the tragedy, and troll the internet looking up my long lost loves (both real and imagined-I’m looking at you Hunter Hayes and Josh Hutcherson).  And what does Mother Nature/The Universe hand me, a sweet and romantic and slightly angsty beautiful gay love story in the movie Dream Boy...

And then Mother Nature turned into a colossal Bitch because the couple Nathan and Roy get smashed to pieces but not just that... Nathan is beaten, raped, murdered... And now I am dead of a broken heart.

Life is cruel, Time’s a thief Love’s a girl/guy You just can’t keep We learn to trust And grow attached Then it goes up Like gas and match Some say it’s jaded That we’re depressed But they’re the ones Who say they’re stressed The universe Does not choose Who will win And who will loose We all love We all cry We will age And some day die We are shattered Pieces scattered Hearts are bruised And bodies battered There’s nothing bad With feeling wrong Time will pass And move along We’ll all suffer Cause we are man All too often At each other’s hand The tears we cry Will burn our flesh Our lungs will Burn inside our chest And though we know They might be right When people help We tend to fight There’s nothing wrong With how we feel There’s no one way For us to heal Nothing’s fair In love or life What brings us joy Will bring us strife Cause we are shattered Our pieces scattered Our hearts are bruised And bodies battered Love’s a burden That we carry It brings us peace But feeds our furry There’s nothing To be done or fixed Cause life is love And love’s a bitch So let it come And come what may Each new scar’s A brand new day I’d never change The things I’ve done Cause every day’s A battle won I’ll life my head And raise this voice For every love There was no choice The world is full Of things to hate But loving you Was no mistake So yes we hurt And yes we cry But we are here And will not lie I may not know And never will Why there’s a Whole I cannot fill For as I grow The more I want The love that others Like to flaunt So yeah we’re broken And we’re chokin’ On these words That are unspoken Cause we’re shattered Bruised and battered And our pieces Now are scattered So don’t blame us And don’t hate us Cause there’s Nothing that can save us The world is shattered We are scattered Love is bruised And all are battered.

Okay guys, so I know I’ve been absent for a while, but there’s been something bugging me for a month... Yet another thing that tends to screw up both relationships as well as friendships.  I swear that this is one of the most annoying things that I’ve ever had to deal with within friendships, and yet it happens time and time again.  

Guys, listen up, girls can be friends with a guy and not want to date him or destroy his relationship with another girl.  Now, for the girls; girls, other girls are not all out to get your man and seduce him.  

But really, there’s a lot of layers here so let me start with a little anecdote so you know what I’m dealing with.  I’m 24 and i have two guy friends that I love hanging out with (we met in a college class) but they’re a little younger than me-18 and 21.  Now, we spent a good amount of time in class getting to know each other and stuff, so of course I decided to keep the friendship going through the next year even though we didn’t have any other classes together and we could have easily just drifted away.  But they were cool, seemed like decent guys, had brains and were interesting to talk to.  Well, summer rolls around and I figure that we might be able to hang out a little, but one’s doing summer school and the other works, so it’s hard.  Now, through the past year I’ve talked to them through all sorts of “life stuff” including break ups, new girlfriends, whatever-and I supported them as best I could without being able to actually be there.  Turns out, these guys have been keeping stuff bottled up; apparently my attempts at jokes to boost their confidence were coming off too flirty, and my attempts to temper some of the girl hate one of them was going through during his break up came off more as bashing (funny, cause he liked my comments of Facebook, up until he got back together with his ex).  They both apparently thought that I was basically hitting on them while disrespecting the girlfriends that they had, so i was told to back off because the things i was saying were making them uncomfortable.  Fine.

Here’s what I think really happened... 21 got back together with his ex, said ex probably went through his social media and saw me as a threat, and either told him to write the message or wrote the message herself.  18 was just being a brat, whatever, not cool.  

The bottomline is that this has happened before, and I’m sure that I’m not the only one.  Guys, you’re not just good for sex, sometimes girls can actually like you just for hanging out or talking.  You’re not all drop-dead gorgeous and we girls can’t help but tear your clothes off.  Sure, that might be how it works in junior high or high school, but really you need to grow up!! 

Girls, please don’t be so suspicious and jealous it’s so ugly and unattractive.  If you have trust issues with your guy then you need to deal with them (with him) and leave his girl friends alone.  You certainly wouldn’t want him going through your phone and calling up every guy telling them that you’re his girlfriend, right?  I don’t know, maybe you’re into that sort of dependent relationship and controlling significant other, but I would hate it-and I would kick his ass.