AND SO IT BEGINS

Reminder to me: there is no such thing as always or never. I'm alright

I have a mental illness that makes me tie a lot of my self worth into other people which is unhealthy for everyone involved (that's right, I forget I have it sometimes because I've been managing it pretty well for a while) So on some level I'm aware that a lot of my feelings right now are related to that (and not anything else) and also I'll get over it and be fine Still isn't fun tho. And I got no damn reason to be upset but there's nothing I can do

Not really mad but kinda sad and bitter at the thought of people ditching me and going on with their lives and being better for it, like I’m not a person just a drag on people Selfish me I should say that most of it is just me venting rn, I’m not in a great place. But I will be eventually. I’m just still sorting things

Hey tumblr buddies if you send me absolutely any (safe for work!) Image right now I will turn it into a heartstone card Can be your ocs, my ocs, memes, your cat, whatever But if you wanna send me ocs you should also send a brief description

And waiting for the end of consecutive bad moods Things just not good sometimes

Still hurt

That's always how it goes though. People get bored of me I guess

Just sucks to feel like people are better off without you as part of their life