“Are you…” there’s hesitation, as if he’s not quite sure how to phrase this. So, like most things, Ben opts for the direct approach. “—… are you seeing my son?” Dating sounds odd to say, but this whole situation was not something Ben had been prepared for.
My mouth opens, then closes. I can feel the nervousness in my body, in the way my hand shoots to the back of my neck almost subconsciously before I force it back down, straighten up, and look at him, trying to gauge just how badly this is about to go.
Honesty. That's what this needs. Even if it might get me a black eye. A lie will probably lead me to the same result.
"Yes. I'm seeing Theodore."
That sounds strange, but it's how Ben said it, and maybe it's what he's most comfortable with. We're dating. But if I told him that his son calls me boyfriend (and worse things he has no right to know), it would not bode well for me.
"I didn't know. When we first--I didn't know he was your son. Not until recently."
I explain myself, pausing whenever I can't find the right words, and even if finding that out hadn't made any real difference. My hands want to move again, gesture, fidget, anything to burn off the nervous energy, but I keep them still.
"We were going to tell you. We were just trying to figure out how."