Corona virus pandemic journal

The 7 of Pentacles reversed feels like exhaustion around so much uncertainty itself. It looks like all of us just staring at the horizon waiting for the next bad thing to happen because we don’t trust that peace is going to stay peaceful anymore. There’s impatience here, but what causes that impatience is fear. It feels tied to distrust in systems, frustration with preparedness, and that worn-out feeling of wondering whether anybody TRULY has things under control anymore. This card reminds me of somebody digging up seeds before they’ve had time to grow because…they’re too nervous to trust what’s happening underground. Everybody wants answers right now, and the 7 of Pentacles reversed reminds us that the waiting alone is enough to wear people thin.

Then the 7 of Cups reversed starts clearing some of that smoke out of the room. This card feels like the difference between panic and reality slowlyyy separating from one another. During times that are so uncertain, we start drowning in headlines, rumors, social media fear, conspiracy theories, worst-case scenarios, and everybody’s cousin suddenly becoming an expert online. This card tells us that eventually the fog will start to lift enough for us to sort through what’s real and what’s exaggerated BS. It doesn’t feel like uncontrollable madness taking over the world. It feels more like we’re trying to get our footing again and learning not to believe every shadow moving through the trees at night.

The High Priestess sitting in the center of this spread matters a great deal because she’s really quiet, careful energy. She’s not destruction. Not at all… She’s observation. She points to information still developing, research still happening, facts that aren’t 100% visible yet, and situations being watched closely behind the scenes. This card tells us there will continue to be conversations, studies, concern, and monitoring around hantavirus or illnesses like it, BUT the energy here is much more cautious and investigative than something catastrophic. The High Priestess is the old woman on the porch who sees more than she says. She watches before she says a word. She doesn’t run through town ringing alarm bells unless there is REALLY a fire coming.

The 2 of Swords reversed does show that difficult decisions and uncomfortable conversations will likely become unavoidable eventually. This card feels tied to division, public arguments, and all of us struggling over who or what to trust anymore. It carries that same tension we already know far too well from recent years where everybody felt kind of split down the middle about safety, truth, authority, and personal freedom. The energy here says avoidance eventually will run out. People might feel pressured to choose sides or give a response to fears they’d rather just ignore. Still, this card doesn’t feel like forced global shutdown energy to me. It feels more like social tension and emotional strain than a complete societal collapse.

Then the Page of Swords closes this reading with a restless, watchful kind of energy. Lord, this card feels like refreshing the news feed at 2 in the morning while your stomach sinks lower with every headline! The Page of Swords watches everything. This Page gathers information constantly, but can also feed anxiety by never stepping away from the noise long enough to breathe. This card points to nonstop media coverage, internet speculation, public fear cycles, and people becoming consumed mentally by trying to predict what happens next. In many ways, the conversation itself could become louder and scarier than the actual situation.

Y’all, this spread feels more psychologically heavy rather than physically catastrophic. It shows fear, uncertainty, hypervigilance, hidden/secret/scientific information that we don’t know right now, and emotional exhaustion far more than it shows worldwide collapse. There are no cards here that honestly scream devastation on the level that we might be afraid of. No Tower card crashing through the middle….No complete ruin. What these cards really seem to warn us about is letting fear and constant information pull us so far out of ourselves that we forget how to live our everyday lives.

Sometimes fear spreads faster than illness ever could. That’s the part these cards keep circling back to for me.