the green heart

“ it will be fine. the worst that can happen is i get imprisoned and i have a good escape rate. ” anna maria wasn’t really worried but she couldn’t tell whether the absence of worry was because of her confidence in her abilities and network or because she didn’t care about the consequences of failing. after the war, it became hard to care about such things, as nothing could ever come quite close to what had been done to her during the war years. “ if you think a wall can stop me, you don’t know me at all, tilde. defying the odds is my thing, remember? ”

One hand reached out to grab Anna Maria’s in a gesture of gratitude. “It won’t work, meine Löwin.” Her voice was tired, drained, just as every part of her. “It’s not that I doubt your abilities or your determination. But I’ve been their prisoner. Every step I take is documented, the Stasi surely has instructed one of their watchdogs to report my whereabouts specifically.” 

                        Would you rescue me? Would you get my back?                             Would you take my call when I start to crack?                                                    Would you rescue me?

my   dearest   

my   -

d   -

mathilde   !

i   congratulate   you   to   your   recent   marriage.   sadly,   i   was   unable   to   attend   for   i   was   quite   busy,   surely   you   of   all   people   must   understand.   additionally,   my   invitation   appears   to   have   disappeared   under   mysterious   circumstances.   i   never   received   it,   but   you   know.   the   postal   system.

in   any   case,   i   wish   you   all   the   best,   may   your   days   be   filled   with   happiness   until   the   last   one   comes.   &   you   know   me   ;   it   will   come.   some   invitations   i   need   no   written   note   for.

still,   there   is   always   an   open   door   for   you   here.

yours,

death

death, my friend, 

thank you for your kind wishes, even though we both know they aren’t sincere. I won’t lie and act like I didn’t purposely refrained from inviting you. Given our troubled past, it seemed  inappropriate and not a wise decision for both our sakes. Not that a card would’ve been able to reach you anyway. 

I do appreciate the reminder of who you are and what awaits me, if I return to your realm. Despite that I will always hope you’re well and eventually find, whatever you might desire. Until then you know my adress for letters and that you can visit ( not that you need my permission for that, as far as my experience taught me ). 

 I will keep the door in mind, I promise. 

yours,

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       characteristic hesitation tempers movements that might otherwise have been impulsive.    tatiana is always cautious.    that is what made it so difficult to believe mathilde in the first place    ( why, even now, a hint of doubt lingers in the back of her mind, try as she does to smother it. )     still, her curiosity has been piqued.   she is a voznesenetz, and loves her soldiers.   surely mathilde, to the core of her being, is the same.       ‘ how remarkable, ’     she murmurs, slender hands treating each page like a delicate thing, even as she pours over it.       ‘ and…  every signature has a story.   do you recall them all? ’

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