[pacing around] its the fact the fact that in the ending nelly cant even remember half of the reason she joined hermann. that in every single mirror world she saw she now remembers as her never escaping the cycle of abuse in wuthering heights or living her own life because of the child she raised. the fact that she so very clearly does not hate heathcliff as much as what he represents to her. that shes operating on sunk cost and fear and a desire to reclaim a life she lost many years of to the earnshaws but at the same time she still, as much as she can will herself to, cares about heathcliff. wild hunt heathcliff's unique buff against her is "affection and hatred". i'm going to kill myself



















