Wow its been a while since I last posted on here.
Not sure if I want to share this madness,,,,
But here we go...Broke up with my boyfriend of six months in Jan. WAIT this is relevant because one of the reasons why I broke it off...was because I was feeling everything of his. EVERY SINGLE THING. I even "mirrored" his sleep problems at times. He triggered my empathy so much to the point that it was just getting ridiculous. At times I thought I was going to die, I had anxiety attacks that sprung up only when I thought about him or was around him. There was always something wrong...but the anxiety attacks continued because I didnt question the relationship we had. Wont go into too much detail here but by the end of December I realized that I could not stand his emotions/emotional self and his attitude.
Caring about someone is literally sharing...and I regret involving myself with someone as emotionally confusing as my ex.
Long story short, that is the end of that and the sad thing is I'm still trying to cut cords and get him out of my head. I can still feel his presence in my dreams, he still appears in them. I'm always trying to help him in these dreams. There's nothing worse than excessively feeling someone's presence when they are not even there. Also I'm not even sure if what I felt for him was actually romantic love or just excessive empathy. Either way, that relationship quickly turned into the worse mistake of my life. If I ever saw him again it would be too soon. I dont want to see him ever again LOL
I've been feeling alot more sane ever since I broke it up. Been keeping to myself alot lately and have recently picked up a new hobby that keeps my mind very busy. I've decided to not allow myself to get too involved in other people's lives...as this is when the trouble starts.
Got good advice, never try to play the "hero."