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Just came back here to drop this. Episode 6 was a dream ❤️
Build Jakapan, Daemi's Poi, and other individuals stepping forward
I like my peace, but this situation is very serious and deserves to be documented clearly for the international/English-speaking fanbase, which was my original goal of archivism on Tumblr. Some of the posts have already been deleted and others will be washed away with the sands of Twitter time.
Please do not talk about this in terms of "drama" or "tea" because that does a disservice to the victims and people here on Tumblr who may have lived through these experiences watching you treat their trauma like nonsense.
I have no stake in this and do not claim to know the full truth. However, rather than seeing everyone vague about what's happening, I want to provide an account of what people on Twitter are seeing above the noise. I will try to keep this post updated with important developments when appropriate.
My only ask is please don't comment to my inbox about this post. I understand your anger and hurt, but I need to take care of my own well-being. Make a dummy account if you want to talk about it; I will not censor the comments section of post as long as you are reasonable and not victim-blaming.
Finally, please be kind to each other, including Pond (as long as he is doing the right thing) and [Jan 23 update: lmfao fuck Pond] the other actors in BOC given that Poi specifically said she hid this from the cast, and also especially fans who loved Build and were blindsided. There is no "deserved" to be upset, people who invest their love and free time into something are allowed to be hurt... the only thing that matters about a person's integrity is how they choose to act with this information.
tw: domestic violence, intimate partner violence, abuse, threats, photos of bruises, rape, miscarriage
*dead eyed stare into space* Unless if there are major updates between now and the 28th in terms of evidence, I'll leave this be for now. The dread we all feel...
Three main updates to this post:
Additional evidence provided by Mynk, the other victim who previously stepped forward,
more physical evidence including records of financial abuse provided by Poi, and
more translations of incendiary social media comments Build made not in the previous post
tw: domestic violence, abuse, financial abuse, photos of bruises, assault, rape, miscarriage, abortion, homophobia
some people think the new mileapo movie would not be a love story 💀💀💀💀 have they confirmed that it's a love story tho?
*MUFFLES SCREAMS* I wrote the entire reply and it got swallowed by Tumblr. This is the 5th time I've made this mistake because I am a FOOLE (though more likely it's because tumblr's editor sucks). Anyway, here we go again.
Formally, the film's genre is historical. And its working title is #ThaiPeriodMovie while they tease us about the movie title.
However, several things stood out to me in the way this film has been discussed (potential spoilers, but mostly fan theory!)
Here's Apo speaking about how the film came about at Kis x Farger and how Pond contextualized Mile's role in the film. Please note the conjecture is one of the translator's theories, not what was explicitly said. But the part about Mile was what was said 🤗
Pond then came up with the idea that it would be so gorgeous if Apo could perform a Thai dance. Pond also said that Mile has a personality that goes well with Apo* so together they should make a movie that celebrates Thai culture.
[*they may be a couple lead in their movie]
Also, this LGBTQ Thai youtuber was able to identify cultural details in just the short trailer. He starts talking about some of the important details around 6:27 (which I am not retyping again)
Basically, he was able to identify that Apo was performing a Lakhon Nai, which is performed in the royal court and traditionally only had female dancers even for male roles.
However, he noted that because Apo was a male dancer in the royal court, the movie likely takes place in the period of King Rama IV-V, which was most likely validated by BOC's production staff recently!
He also theorized that Apo and Bas were were performing Inao (Punji), which is a Lakhon Nai epic that had queer elements. I can't find a good English source about this epic, so watch the video to learn what he has to say about the story.
He mentioned the possibility that in the movie, there might the duality with a reflection of Apo's character having a stage life in an epic with a queer story while the character's real life is embroiled in a love affair with the handsome Taphon player 😝
Actually, I was rewatching the Leslie Cheung and Hong Kong LGBT Cinema video essay a couple of weeks back and this part really stood out to me as what they might be trying to do with this film.
The film cleverly ties homosexuality to traditional Chinese art, making an, at the time, unfamiliar topic much more approachable to a Chinese audience, allowing the audience to feel the loss, pain, and persecution LGBT people had been feeling.
But its contribution to inclusivity is, perhaps, even more direct than that. The casting of Leslie Cheung in the role creates this feeling that we aren't looking at a fictional character, we are facing the real struggle of Leslie Cheung. Leslie was sympathetic, so his characters, and by extention LGBT people, were sympathetic.
Anyway, this is all speculation! I want to point out again that historical LGBTQ films don't need to have a romantic plot, AND even if a romance between characters occur it's often interwoven with the characters' other struggles and drama/tragedy of the period. Don't expect KPTS episode 8 😭
I'm less bothered by whether or not Mile and Apo's characters will be queer than the fact that so many people are openly dismissing that they can't be queer in the film because it's a historical film (what). As @cookiedoughfiesta mentioned to me, some idiots have said that they can't be gay because it's a historical film and gay people didn't exist then (THE IRONY OF SUFFERING HOMOPHOBES EVERY DAY IN THIS FANDOM 💀💀💀)
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All I want for Christmas 🎄 is…
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The Main Character Allegations are True
Apo spent a lot of time with and sat next to Harper’s Bazaar Singapore Editor-in-Chef, Kenneth Goh during the show! Maybe it has something to do with those secret projects? 👀
Here's his profile, in case you have any concerns about authenticity / "neutral" academic status.
Thomas Baudinette is Senior Lecturer in Japanese and International Studies in the Department of Media, Communications, Creative Arts, Languages and Literatures at Macquarie University, Sydney, Australia.
Some fandoms really need to be told to be respectful cause their BL actors / idols are watching you show your ass. Even if they're not dating their screen partner, if they're queer and they see your homophobic / queer erasure comments, guess how much that hurts their feelings.
Did you see the young actor from Heartstopper being effectively forced to come out officially? I hope his statement gives some people in this fandom a reason to reconsider their behavior…
warnings are in the tags.
Yeah. (context) I went to bed very angry last night 🥲 I'm sorry I can't hold back my anger anymore.
as nice as it would be that this makes people reconsider their behavior, most people - even or maybe especially lgbtq people who made up the majority of the comments he felt pressured by - aren't that self aware. some people in other fandoms I won't name were all "💔" in the same breathe they said other shit that was definitely read as pressure to come out even if the posters/rebloggers don't read their own behavior that way.
lgbtq people often contribute to societal pressure around the experience of coming out. just because it's 2022 doesn't mean some of you aren't Perez Hilton 🥲🥲🥲🔪it's another realm when it comes to public figures/celebrities. lots of public figures can be out in their personal lives without wanting or needing it to be known to the whole fucking internet quoted on their Wikipedia/imdb/my drama list bio page which us regular people never have to worry about.
two more thoughts that go together, and I'm talking to other lgbtq people here:
(1) queer folks don't become queer the moment they make it known to you. stop reinforcing the standard that people are straight unless if they say otherwise just because they don't want to make it known to you what their sexuality is.
(2) some people, queer people, really need to relearn the time-honored concept of signalling. if you don't think someone is queer or don't have enough context/information to make a judgment call or don't feel comfortable calling someone queer before they come out, just move on with your life instead of making other queer people feel like they're losing it for noticing something and wanting to discuss it among themselves.

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I love love the fact that Mile Spoils Apo…and I’m not speaking in a materialistic way(although he does that too 🙊) but I’m speaking in the sense of how quickly Mile caught on to the fact that Apo is very sensitive to detail and he stored that information deep in his soul (and effectively used it with Apo) and he was able to pick up on things like the fact that Apo doesn’t use cologne but a alum stone stick (the fact that Mile paid attention to that maybe saw Apo wear it and it stuck to him) the fact that he started of by teasing Apo that he talked a lot yet he later understood that, it was Apo’s way of showing he cared (wanting to know everything about the person shows how invested Apo gets) so then when they wouldn’t film together Mile proceeded to call Apo to ask about his day ( if he ate if he drank water if he had a good shooting day)🥺 the way that he kept his phone off night mode until he was able to talk to Apo. The way he would actively take care of Apo on Set and then the one that I think hit me square in my chest and left me no doubt of the absolute adoration Apo feels for Mile is whenApo was doing his Birthday live on IG and “jokingly” (I personally don’t think it was a joke) said “How can I live with out Mile if he’s the one that takes care of Me” cue my tears 😭 the genuine care that Mile put into connecting/ understanding Apo was really what won Apo over. Knowing how they said that Mile was the first to open up to Apo and it gave into Apo returning that trust. (Also Apo GIVES as much as he gets and he returns to Mile tenfold) but I think it hits me a bit more with Mile bc he seemed to be a bit more rough.. ??(idk what word to use) in the beginning and and to see the little by little process of sweetness is just you know 😩😭 and now we have a Mile the almost never says no to Apo, I think I’ve only seen it twice. We see a soft spoken man that is always taking care of Po. And yeah let me just 🚶🏽♀️🚶🏽♀️ (Last but not least let’s never forget when Mile told Apo that he wasn’t weird that he just had character just like everyone else had theirs) and then we can hear Jeff in the back saying how “it’s so weird to hear Mile say that, since he rarely says this type of things” 🙈💓
The love that I have for these two individuals is going to burst out of my heart ❤️
ANON I CRYYYYYY you read my mind on everything.
One of the most telling aspects is how differently they act at the beginning when they were just getting to know each other and now. And yeah, I think you're right that "rough" is probably the right to describe how Mile was acting... but to be fair, it's often the way guys show affection, which would make sense at the beginning of their relationship.
But I think it's also suuupppper interesting in contrast to see the fact now how they act vs. with close cast mates that they both still rough house other castmates but not really each other as much. The only recent time I can think of is Singapore, Apo shaking Mile and making him dizzy lol, but even the tone of that is different where Mile was clearly happy to accept it until he got dizzy and Apo knew when to stop, where as Jeff begrudgingly had to accept their affection in the video 😂😂😂🤣.
Mile has already said that for him, money is not a problem. And Apo's affection and attention isn't so cheap it can be bought. The most important thing, and most limited resource Mile has, is time and Mile gave Apo all his time and attention. Apo saw that and returns all the attention and time and affection 🥺
As for the Feb IG live, I raise you:
We're not gonna see any more IG lives. :') Which I'm OK with. The more they realized they have eyes on them, the more they retreated for their own privacy, which is normal. Their relationship is not for consumption, it's not for the fans, which is why it's so precious and they protect it and each other.
Hi, what is your pov on some of these comments about mileapo fans being “delulu” and naive bc it’s “just fake bl fanservice”?
Because idk if I’m going crazy but like as a gay person this shit seems borderline homophobic? On the one hand I kinda get where they’re coming from with like the concert “plot” (idk what else to call it 😭), but otherwise seeing how they interact with each other in off-screen/stage moments and their chemistry and the huge ass difference with the entire cast, how they interact with each other vs others, the side couples energy with each other, it’s not that big of a leap… and to imply that it’s dumb or naive for ppl (lots of them queer themselves) to perceive that smells like homophobia to me… idk
I’m not even trying to be mad abt the mileapo thing bc frankly i don’t give a shit what people do or don’t believe about two actors but it’s the dismissive tone of such comments that pisses me off, and I was wondering if maybe you or any of your followers have some thoughts about this too.
Hello friend.
Thank you for trusting me with this delicate ask. Hopefully I can do a good job with it.
I'm hearing a couple of things in your question, part of which I'm guessing is just being able vent (glad to provide the space!) but the crux of which is commenting on the irony of homophobia in Kinnporshe / BL fandom. And yeah. You're not imagining it.
CW: Homophobia. I'm serious, this is your only warning. Some of this really upset me today and I'm pretty good at compartmentalizing.
Apo: how do they say “ i love you” (in korean)?
Mile: saranghaeyo!
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MILE GO TO BED
No because I think what Mile said was v important. For months I've seen this Mile hate train that I never quite understood cause he's been by far one of the most respectful, selfless and nurturing people on this cast (not saying anything bad about the rest of cast but my point still stands) I think when people read about how rich Mile and his family are many people assumed he was going to be this aloof, unapproachable and lowkey narcisstic person because lets be honest, rich people tend to be v entitled. Mile has always been unapologetic himself, he always has a bright smile, a mature mindset and a calm demeanor. The fact he always chooses kindness speaks volumes about who he is as a person but it's completely valid for him to recognize he's also hurt by words whether he wants to take offense in them or not. He's not asking for adoration from others but simple respect as a human being. I'm sad he even needs to say this on a interview but I think it's important he acknowledges it. Some people especially in socmed are getting waaay to comfortable being rude to others, spreading lies, bringing unnecessary drama and crossing other people's boundaries (esp concerning someone's private life) I'm glad I'm stanning two wise, loving and mature men. Mile and Apo truly deserve all the beatiful things happening in their lives rn. I love seeing good people win!!!
Yes. This ⬆️⬆️⬆️ Thank you.
The amount of unbased nasty energy even here on Tumblr is just disappointing. I've seen him get hate for promoting blood donation and snide comments about him on a post pointing out he was thanking staff.
Mile can't change the family he was born into any more than he can change the fact he's 6'0 tall. Rather than judge him by his actions, people are nasty about things he can't control.
People will use their own identity as a shield for their nasty behavior. Being poor(compared to millionaires), being queer, being a BIPOC does not excuse actions you personally choose that are hurtful to others.
Treat Mile with kindness. Or else. This is a threat 🐰🔪

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The BKK✈️SIN round up no one asked for (except for me!!! I asked for it which is why it exists.)
Not this!! Head tilt!! Flirting!! Right in front of my single ass and salad.
They both looked incredible and I feel insane. ( x / x / x )
Apo watched Mile's suitcase and guitar at separate times 😭😭😭
He also wore this fan gift. Note that he was previously seen wearing the blue ring at the last KPWT.
Apo truly said:
I’m in legit tears, idk if I read it right but so many Thai fans are saying how Mile said that in those days where everything becomes a bit too much ( the hate that they get) they are always there for each other and Apo being the one that is driving him around and showing him that there will always be more beautiful things than bad 😭😭😭😭their bond is so freaking beautiful the love that they have for each other! The way that they have each others back( he had to say “please be kind to me”). It really is through thick and thin 😭😭 I love them so much. Also to all those miserable people and everyone that sends hate to them, just remember that everything that goes around comes around, (there’s a saying in Spanish “Don’t spit up bc it will eventually fall back down”)
Haha anon, what if. WHAT IF I CRY?!?!? SO WHAT THEN HUH WHO'S GONNA STOP ME
I can't quite tell by the translation, either he's saying that he and Apo used their personal trips to take their mind off the negativity that sometimes popped up, or maybe using an analogy by saying it's like when they take trips and not everything goes as planned (such as the rain) that the journey is still beautiful.
Either way, it's such a lovely world view, and why I feel such deep kinship with the way he conducts himself.
I'm so glad Mile stood up for himself and said: yeah I never reply to the shitty mean comments I see because that's not the type of energy I wanna invite into my life but I do see them and they're hurtful!!!!
I totally agree Mile, the type of energy I try to curate too... (even though complaining in private can be cathartic).
Also I take this as carte blanche permission to fight them for you!!! FIGHTING HATERS CAN BE CATHARTIC TOO