Find Me

And my lights are off

Inside and outside

Of me

Wondering why

I’ll never be

Enough

For

Fucking

Or that I don’t love you

You touched a piece of my soul I didn’t even know was there

Set me on fire

You are not solely to blame

I recognize that

I wasn’t ready for you

You weren’t ready for me

But we tried

And we fought

And the rope burned our palms but we held on

Praying for just enough slack to bring us close enough to a new life

You gave me a daughter

I gave you a son

Nothing will change that

Why can’t you see that you deserve someone who will fight for you

And alongside you

I genuinely may never love again

The way I loved you

But just because you love someone,

As you scroll your phone past midnight

Illuminated screen changes tabs when you hear my stir

Who else is there, my love

On the other end

When you hide your phone under pillows

Ignore pings in my presence

Ceramic plates, once shattered, can never be made whole

No matter how artfully the glue is applied