itβs hard for her to bring up what happened, at all. if thereβs too much detail involved, or whatever. sheβll go into a panic attack, & she hates that shit. who likes panic attacks? nobody. itβs like her body physically canβt take the memories that come along with everything. & honestly some of it isnβt for anybody else. which is why she was glad she never had to testify about what happened, due to her dad putting an end to any chances of a trail when he fucked up her uncle like that. not like that was ever the issue with vincent, in the first place. frankly sheβs thankful she didnβt ever have to see him again. but that regrettably meant that she couldnβt really tell her mom everything. which is also hard, because she also wants to be understood completely. but she already kinda feels as though she is, anyway. so she guesses it doesnβt even matter. they both didnβt really intend to end up together, but it ended up being good for both of them in a way. raegan just doesnβt understand that right now, due to believing she was probably a burden or another mouth to feed. especially when she & her boyfriend are already small business owners. but she can tell that temperance truly does care, & appreciates that sheβs not trying to fix something that canβt be. not entirely anyway. βyou do always say that.β she responds, with a heavy & exaggerated nod. still smiling shyly. her blush still has not gone away, either. she feels bad slightly, that she canβt just tell temperance that she believes her. but maybe sheβs right, right? maybe one day sheβll be able to. she shakes her head at the small display of excitement directed at her decision, though sheβs quick to look back up. big blue eyes unsure, but sheβs still smiling, anyway. it was weird, learning how to be happier. raegan grabs tempβs hand, as she leans forth for her to kiss her head. squeezing it, for some additional reassurance. βyeah.β she says, nodding in solidarity. βwhat could go wrong, right?β she asks, her face screwing up in mock nonchalance. a face that says effectively says βpsshβ - whatever. a few moments go by, & sheβs shifted. introspective, almost. looking down as she plays with her sleeve. βso like, you think heβs mad at me, though?β eyes glimmering, with her search for answers. that guidance, temperance was here for.
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