BEST BEAST EVER

i feel like people very often forget that you don't have to love someone to be in a relationship with them. relationships are just societal labels they aren't irrefutable facts of reality that are never ever wrong or bad. i have some really really shitty real life friends that i hate but i still call them my friends because it's just a simple shorthand for our relationship so that i don't have to describe our entire history every single time i talk about them. yes that woman with a boyfriend can still be a lesbian. yes that man who had a wife for several decades can still be aromantic. yes these labels connote romantic love, but romantic love is not a strict component of them. i would love to live in a world where every single person with a partner really truly loves that partner, but we don't live in that world. we live in a world where people are pressured to enter heterosexual marriages and have kids regardless of their real wants and feelings

i finally got a phone and i already have so many bullshit mobile games installed i'm having the time of my life

madelaine and her girlfriend and her boyfriend and her girlfriend and her girlfriend ❤️

in butch purgatory. i love femininity and cutesy clothing and the easiest way to engage with cutesy clothing is to wear it but i don't want to because i'm butch

i'm scared of posting my music online because what if some big music theory knower listens to it and goes "hmmm yes...... the polytonal octave chord root note is five seminotes above the falsetto major...... the gain is 1% more than wouuld be optimal..... the drums are boring..... this woman is a failure at music forever"

the nice thing about having a disorder that is not widely and constantly talked about on the internet (autism DID OCD BPD ADHD etc) is that there aren't a lot of stereotypes to immediately associate with me when i tell someone what i have. and it isn't dumbed down in the way that other disorders are