My muse is my entire personality now || He/They || Multi-fandom || I write fanfiction (try finding my AO3 account hehe >:]) (RP Name is Connor/Connie but you can address me as such) || Simply put, if u're a pos, I'll block you || 13 BELOW DNI PLS!!! FOR UR OWN SAFETY!! TY :3
(finally making a proper intro post after being on this app for almost 3 years (apparently???))
INTRO POST
Hellooo :]
For the sake of internet security, you may call me Connor which is the name my blog's persona.
I use He/They pronouns and am openly bisexual so if u have a problem with that, pls leave.
13 BELOW DNI PLS!!! I will say a lot of messed up stuff in this blog so this is for ur own safety. I won't stop you if you decide to interact anyway. Just remember everything I say here is mostly /j and /sarc
I joined a lot of fandoms but I can't list them all lol
Kept count of how many OCs I have. It's 93 (nvm. it's actually 98 o_o'')
If you have a problem with any of the fandoms I join, pls leave. My interests are not your problem.
Shout-out to every single Tumblr user who I grew attached to upon joining this app in my prime Studio Investigrave era :D
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ENA SHINONOME........😔 Ena Shinonome killed me..........
(I screenshotted this bc she's just real asf.... and its hot as HELL where I am)
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Heyy
(Damn didnt realize ena was real, len just says goofy stuff)
... Depression... Yay...
(Dont ask, I was talking to a friend, either way common knoledge im depressed soo)
If I did my downloads id be my own fucking webcomic...
Anyway Tags free Also nf
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Doku by Hakushi Hasegawa (if you wanna listen to this one, give it more than one try)
Driving 2 Nowhere by breakcore dealer
PUNK ROCKY or ROBBERY by A$AP ROCKY
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Oh, still living in denial? That's fine. I'm not done anyway.
So, the character whose inner selves/identities he masks as that degrade others/themselves about their gender representation and clearly display his internal transphobia/homophobia and misogyny,
who reacts this way to a heavily boarded up room that's probably hiding her/the feminine side/the more vulnerable and comfortable personality,
who gets told he would be "less of a man" and "worse than her father" if he showed even a hint of emotion and sensitivity,
who IMPLIED TO RIBBIT AND THE AUDIENCE THAT HE TRIED TO COME OUT TO HER MOM ONLY TO BE REJECTED AND PROBABLY GOT TOLD "You'll always be my son" BY HER (which doesn't sound as supportive as you think it is btw. pls don't do this to your trans kids)
who reacted this way when he was given a bow on his head which implied Ribbit pieced it all together (he did not react that way TO RIBBIT HERSELF. it's more about Ribbit's action that made him blush),
who has THIS SONG playing in the background during his (YES, HIS. NOT POMNI'S, NOT POMNI AND JAX'S. HIS.) flashbacks,
who, in the real world, frequently visits Zooble's/Riley's bar which is explicitly mentioned to be a QUEER BAR,
AND WHO IS CREATED BY A TRANS WOMAN HERSELF WHO HAS MADE THESE DOODLES OF JAX IN THE PAST AND RECENTLY MADE ANOTHER DOODLE WHICH PRACTICALLY GIVES US CONFIRMATION THAT HE IS TRANS,
is cis??
If he ain't a trans woman, one thing's for sure; he ain't cis.
ALSO, ANOTHER THING I'VE BEEN SEEING AROUND IS "If Jax is trans, then he's bad representation because he's abusive!". My brother in Christ, if you were told to mask your emotions and grew up in a very dysfunctional environment that promoted toxic masculinity and homo/transphobia without practicing healthy coping mechanisms, you'd be the same way. It absolutely does not excuse his actions, of course, but it doesn't mean you can't sympathize with WHY he's like this. Queer or not, cis or not, that is still a human being with complex emotions who can be affected by the environment they are exposed to.
(please correct me if I said anything wrong/offensive and how I can fix it. it is late right now and I'm running on nothing but thoughts, prayers, and spite so I am bound to make a mistake with what I just typed.)
Connor - body currently recovering from temporary death. also he's trying to figure out some feelings he has about his travel buddy
Asmo - thriving in canon good ending and having hot non-sexual intimacy with his angel crush-now-boyfriend, demon self is dead in bad ending and he's now currently living as an immortal human after getting burnt alive by holy fire with no memories of his previous life
Patrons - UNWELL. DO NOT TALK TO THEM. BEING ROYALTY SUCKS SO MUCH.
"Trans Jax came out of nowhere!" "It's just implied. He's not actually trans!"
Oh yeah. Okay, sure.
So what I'm getting from you is that the character who is so obsessed with being the "pinnacle of masculinity",
who became so uncomfortable with wearing a maid dress and got defensive when Zooble said they figured he would be into it,
before eventually feeling comfortable wearing it in public for a short period of time,
who used the egg metaphor transgender/people under the trans umbrella/genderqueer people use to describe what it felt like discovering you want to start a new life as an identity different from your biological sex,
who tried to make Zooble uncomfortable about their gender dysphoria and sounded envious/disappointed when they explained they've come to terms with their identity,
who has a girly-looking room (Caine reads through the brain scans to personalize their avatars and rooms),
who has THIS as his torture sequence,
isn't a trans woman/under the trans umbrella and if he was, him being one just came out of nowhere?
It's fine if that's your opinion, but there is no way in hell you actually believe that hare is cis.
Connor - body currently recovering from temporary death. also he's trying to figure out some feelings he has about his travel buddy
Asmo - thriving in canon good ending and having hot non-sexual intimacy with his angel crush-now-boyfriend, demon self is dead in bad ending and he's now currently living as an immortal human after getting burnt alive by holy fire with no memories of his previous life
Patrons - UNWELL. DO NOT TALK TO THEM. BEING ROYALTY SUCKS SO MUCH.
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I felt like doing this because Jax's character was so freaking tragic for me /pos. Also talking to my friend about the finale made me realize some things about him. Hope you guys like it.
It's not a poem. I don't know what to call it exactly, but I had to write it down. I kind of almost cried making this.
I despise you.
And yet, for some reason, I see myself in you.
Not for the way you act, not for how you treat those around you,
but because in some part of me, you are who I fear to become.
You're someone who never got to truly open up and become her. You hide with a self-proclaimed archetype, you repress, you lash out, you're ashamed of feeling the way you feel.
And I'm afraid that if I keep listening to what other people have to say about myself the way you did,
if I become just as closed off,
if I let their words control who I become in my life,
if I slip and let my emotions overflow,
if I keep feeling shameful for how I feel and my hobbies,
I'll end up turning into you. And I'm scared.
I don't know if I would be able to own up to those mistakes. I don't know if it'll be as easy as I think it'll be.
We're both stubborn, we're hiding, we're trying to survive by trying to let go of reality...
But I don't want to see myself in the person you chose to become. Because you were scared.
Because you decided to push others away. Because you decided to cross this path.
Because you chose not to ask for help.
Because in every chance you had to be able to change and heal and be a better person, you decided to choose the opposite.
I don't want to be you, but the more I look at you, the more I realize I'm getting there.
I still talk, I still try my best to ask for help despite becoming overwhelmed with the thought.
I still want to be a better person.
I still want to be me.
But I feel like it's all slipping away from me. I'm slowly becoming the very character I hate, all because I so desperately want to exist and be me.
I still want to be him. Someone who can face his problems with confidence in his abilities and an open mind.
Someone who isn't afraid to tell others how he feels. Someone independent.
Someone who's able to find motivation to keep trying and trying and trying to reach his goals on life.
Someone who knows how to control his emotions and be able to connect to other people properly thanks to that.
Someone worthy of respect and love.
But now, they laugh, they don't take me seriously, they set off a ticking bomb in me that'll surely explode one day.
They don't take him seriously.
He doesn't exist to them. It's just me.
But some people know who he is. Know that he's in there. Know that he deserves love just as much as everyone else does.
You, who I hated with all my heart, had a chance to heal and grow.
You still might.
But that doesn't mean everyone will forgive you easily.
You've hurt, you've pushed, you've left other people behind because of your fear....
I should say you should've seen it coming, but it seems you already knew it would. You were ready for it.
I still wonder if it's a brave move to being ready to face your end head-on or a cowardly move to give yourself up to a metaphorical death just like that.
And it's sad because you never got to leave. You never got to understand.
You never got to see who you could've been if you just let them love you, if you had just trusted them, reached out to them.
And I can't help but feel pity for you.
I can't help but cry and ponder and think about what could have been, what I could be...
You had so much potential. You had so much room for improvement.
She would've been so beautiful.
I hope that if there were ever a chance for me to become him, I'd see myself the way you wanted to see you.
Beautiful.
For now, I'll try to make him proud.
I'll show you that if you're ever given another chance to heal, grow, and be her, you can still choose to be kind.
And if that time never comes...
I guess I'll do it for you.
I don't want to be you, but I want to become the person you had a chance to turn into in the real world.
Live Notes for TADC: The Last Act. Hope you guys enjoy it (3
OBVIOUSLY SPOILERS AHEAD !!!
Goose, we are 20 seconds into the intro. I already hate you for this bro /aff /pos
Jax you've only ever succeeded in becoming my least favorite. Congrats
Soma. I fucking called it. Or MatPat did. Idk it just made sense to me.
SHUT YOUR BTICH ASS UP YOU WASTE OF PURPLE INK
Awh...
Ragatha is probably still with her mom in the real world. I feel bad for irl her....
And you're still a bitch with no friends. Yeah.
All but Jax lol.
Zooble.... :(((((
Gangle =(((
Jax.
Who you going to, Pomni?
YES. YES. YES SHE'S GOING TO THE DAD.
Pls keep whispering to me like that, Kinger :]
Here we have a- triangle(?) Sharp and inoffensive.
Pomniiiiii :((((((
Someone please say a swear word. Y'all are probably dying to say everything.
Kinger doesn't remember but oh my fucking gods the throwback is insane ToT
Wise words from the icon himself. We (OUI. WE.) love you, Kinger <333
Father and daughter bonding montage <3333
Ragatha is joining in too, yayayayayyyy :D
WOAH INSANE SKY WHAT THE FUCK
EVERYONE'S HELPING YAYYYYY (well everyone but him. good. stay down.)
Looking all emo and shit.
Oh?
Come on? For your huzz?
Damn alright, emotionally closed-off jerk.
Oh damn did the abstracted ones get out?
Gangle what did you do??
It's no one's fault :((
WAIT THAT'S JAX??? OH FUCK I KNEW IT WAS GONNA HAPPEN BUT IT JUST HAPPENED LIKE THAT??? LMAOO
RIP. He's still a bitch though and I still hate him but I appreciated some moments.
Yeah ik they were friends at one point. Still sad to hear
You lost a good one, Jax
Oh word?
OH WORD??
OH HOLY FUCKING SHIT WE WIN!!!
HOLY SHIT YES!!!! YESSSS!!!!!!! HUG HER TIGHTER!!!!!!!!
YEAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
WE WIN BITCHES HHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
KISS HER (/J/J/J)
Awhhhhh I love them <333
Stalking core lololol
She's so tiny <33
Oh my gods she has a gun.
What's he doing?
SHOOT THAT BITCH
Oh yeah you can do that too.
Oh my godddddd woahhhhhh
"You look beautiful honey..." Not a funnybunny shipper but damn that hurts.
THAT'S A BRAIN. THAS A BRAIN BRO.
Woahhh insane visual.
Doors?
HUH??? RAGATHA???
OH. Oh I see.
OHHHH IS THIS HOW HE SEES HER??
PUTA MADRÉ CLOSE THST DOOR OH MY FUCKING GODS EW EW EW EW BACK TO HATING THE BITCH.
Next?
GANGLE OH THANK GOD THST WAS JUST A VISION.
Ohhh this is a "what if zooble died situation". I see. She's masking :(((
JAX WHAT THE FUCK?? THE CLOSET IS MADE OF FUCKING GLASS BRO.
Girl, I know this is just your excuse to slay and be cunty but have some respect for the dead bro.
Ok from now on, Jax is a she now. Feels right.
WHAT THE FUCK GET AWAY. GNAGLE LOWER YOUR LESBIANISM THAT'S STILL JAX. THANK FUCK THIS IS JUST A VISION.
LOL EVEN POMNI'S CONFUSED HAHAHAHAHAH
She does NOT want anyone getting in that door bruh. Conjure a hammer or something.
Or not ig. That's fine.
What's this now?
GANGLE NO
OHHH SHE DOESN'T TAKE THEM SERIOUSLY
LMAO THE LOONEY TOONS BULLSHIT HAHAAH
I like this Jax even more. She seems more fun to watch.
Gods above my nightmares are coming true.
"No girls allowed" LOOK AT YOU BRO.
I like you Piano Jax, dw
The beer is non-existent.
"Reality is gay" AGAIN. LOOK AT YOU.
Oh! They hate whoever is locked up in there.
Misogyny again
OH FUCK YEAH KILL ALL OF THEM POMNI.
Oh no not Piano Jax
Ohhh no. There you are. Hi, buddy.
Awww ty :3
PIANO JAX NO WHAT THE FUCK.
Here she is. Goddamn it's dark.
OH SHIT.
Ohh did she run away?
RIBBIT! KAUFMO! OH MY GOD THE GANG'S ALL HERE!
Oh my god she sounded so pathetic. What the fuck happened.
Woahh mama Ribbit....
OH WHAT THE FUCK HE SOUNDS LIKE THAT???
The stargazing was HERS. OH MY GODS.
YEAH SEE?? RAGATHA WAS FINE WITH YOU TWO AND YOU HAD TO GO AHEAD AND DO HER LIKE THAT.
She's a sailor mouth. I love you, Ribbit <33
Jax's voice reminds me of something. I don't know what tho.
Religiously traumatized too?? Mannnn Ribbit you ain't even with us anymore and you're making me love you a lot
Parental issues. I figured that.
Ohhh I see.
Parents are confusing bro. I'd know.
OH MY GOD DID SHE DIE??
OHHH SHIT THIS WORSE THAN KILLING A CHILD.
OHHH FUCK DUDE. IRL JAX PROBABLY HAD TO GO BACK TO CHECK ON HER. OH GODS.
OH SHIT SHE ACTUALLY WORE A BOW?? CUTEEEE
Ohh and here is where she becomes emotionally closed off.
IDFK IDFK IDFK
Jax you are fumbling so fucking hard. I am so disappointed in you. Even more so than I already am.
KAUFMO CATCH HER.
GODDAMN IT KAUFMO.
SHE BECAME A THIRD WHEEL OH MY GOD JAX YOU FUMBLING FUMBLER PIECE OF PURPLE PEEL-OFF GUMMY
YOU ARE PROJECTING YOUR PROBLEMS ONTO HER OH MY GOD DIE HARDER DIE HARDER I'M SO FUCKING SURE IRL JAX IS DOING SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU BRO.
JAX YOU BITCH AAUGHHHHHH
Kaufmo doesn't know what you're talking about bro.
YOU DIDN'T MAKE IT. GODDAMN IT YOU HAD EVERY CHANCE TO DO IT BUT YOU DIDN'T YOU AGGRAVATE ME BRO.
KAUFMO REACHED OUT TO YOU FIRST YOU JERK.
GANGLE MY DAUGHTER!!!!!
OH MY GOD SHE GAVE HER THE NAME?? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU???
SEE?? EVEN THEY'RE QUESTIONING YOUR BEHAVIOR
HE KNEW AND YOU DIDN'T BOTHER TO GO TO ATLEAST GO SEE?? THE COMMON ENGLISH LANGUAGE DOESN'T HAVE ENOUGH CURSE WORDS. PENDEJO. ANAK NG PUTA. HAMPAS LUPA. BUGO. JUSMIYO MARIMAR YAWA KAY KA IKAWNG–
She's such a fucking dick dude but still, she could've done so much better.
What a weird conversation starter but you're doing amazing Pomni :D
Maybe. What if she does?
I'm glad you and I can agree on something
Because they atleast have a heart to try and care for a stranger like you?
Because no matter how else they see it, they still accept that you're someone else who's stuck here WITH them??
Good. GOOD. YOU KNEW THE PROBLEM AND YET YOU DIDN'T BOTHER TO FIX IT. THAT'S A LITTLE RELATABLE BUT STILL. ATLEAST I'M NOT ACTIVELY HARMING EVERYONE.
Lol she's an emo. Cute.
KEEP GOING POMNI. GIVE HER A SLAP OR TWO FOR ME.
YEAH WHAT SHE SAID.
OH STOP BEING EMO FOR ONE SECOND AND TALK TO HER. FFS DUDE.
HUG HER TIGHTER. YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT
Yeah dude fuck you too or whatever ACCEPT IT
YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID THAT BEFORE ABSTRACTING ON THEIR ASS
OH FUCK I CAN FEEL IT. PANIC ATTACK CUZ SHE'S DREADING DEATH. I CAN FEEL THAT.
FLASH BANG. THINK FAST CHUCKLENUTS.
YES ZOOBLE FUCK YEAH CLUTCH
Her very own cellar... The others would be jealous.
Aww Gangle....
You don't have to forgive her if you don't wanna. It's okay.
CANONCANONCANONCANONCANON
AWWWWW HAND HOLDING. I'LL TAKE IT.
The sun and colors are back woahh....
AWHHHHHH THE IMPLICATIONS ARE REALLY DARK BUT AWWWWWW RAGGYYYYYYY
OH MY GODS OH MY GODS OH MY GODS WHAT WHAT WHAT HUH CAINE???
CAINE???
MY SON??? YOU'RE OKAY??? MY SON??? PLEASE????
HE'S IN THE VOID OH MY GOD AAAAAAAAAAAA
Oh. Bubble dead. Shame.
Anyway MY SON YEAHHHHHHHH
YOU AREN'T FULLY BAD. GRANTED YOU MAY HAVE GIVEN THE OTHERS TRAUMA AND PERSONALIZED HELLS BUT YOU WERE GIVEN AN IMPOSSIBLE STANDARD.
NO. MAYBE. I DON'T KNOW. JUST NO MORE HELL SHIT. PLEASE.
NO NO NO PLEASE
NO THAT'S EVEN WORSE.
AWH NOO NOT THE FETAL POSITION. WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK
OH. EXIT???
EXIT???
NO. FOLDER????
EXIT???
POWER UP! GO!
GO GO GO GO GO MY BOY. YOU GOT IT!!!
OH SHIT. IT'S OKAY. RUN RUN RUN RUN YOUR LITTLE LEGS.
STOP STOP STOP.
STUDY STUDY STUDY
OHHH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU SMART LITTLE MAN.
MAKE PATTERNS! CREATE! YES!!!!
IS THIS HOW HE GOT TO THE BRAIN SCANS AND FUCKED AROUND WITH THEM TO MAKE THE CIRCUS????
OHHH MY GODS
CAFÉ FREE WIFI???
OH SHIT NAME REVEAL.
SCRATCH IS MIKE!!!!! MIKE IS SCRATCH!!!!!
OH MY GODS MULTIPLE NAME REVEALS HOLY SHITTTTTT
I MIGHT KNOW WHO'S WHO BUT HOLY FUCK AHAHRBAJSBGWJANBDHWJA
GANGLE BECAME A SUCCESSFUL ARTIST I CAUGHT THAT LET'S GOOOOOO
AWH CAINE :((((
OH GODS CAINE
STAY IN THE BOX. NOOO!!!!! STAY IN THE BOX!!!!! NOOOOOO!!!!!!! GET OUT OF MY SKINNNNNNN!!!!!!
Awh......
BLUE!!!!!! BLUE OH MY GOD!!!!!
AWHHHHH.......
BYE BYE BABY BLUE :(((( /lyr
HE'S HOMEEEE
MOM– MOON??? MOON!!!!!
MOON'S OKAY!!!!!!
AWHHHHH MOON X CAINE MY LOVE 💕💕💕
YOU DIDN'T???? OH MY GOSH SHE ACTUALLY LOVES YOU SO MUCH TOT
They're scared of him.... :(((
Awhhh that's really sweet though.....
AWWHHHH.... OH WHAT THE FUCK WE ACTUALLY GET TO LOOK AT THEIR LIVES??????
OH GODS I THINK I'M GONNA CRY.....
SUZIE IS OKAY YIPPEEEEEEEE
THEY ACTUALLY HAD KIDS OH MY GODS 😭😭😭😭😭
Caine that's really sweet of you :(((
Yeah.... I'm happy for both Abby and Pomni.....
Hehe he's really tiny :']
Huge ass puddle lol
That was really neat... 10/10 ending (3
OH MY GOD THEY'RE ACTUALLY HAVING SEX YEAAHHHHHHHHHH
Reminder that even if you found a new f/o to gush over, your previous ones will never feel any less loved by you and something will always remind you of them. It might even trigger the same love you had for them back then.
I would know. Forcas came back to bug my head when I played Sinner Maker and it's the best thing that has ever happened.
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