epic fail and cringe, but I stay silly :3

i HATE self-censorship for a lot of reasons, but being in crisis work makes it even more frustrating. who are you censoring for? like i am being so fr, WHO are you censoring for? have you even thought it through? people who have been raped know that they have been raped. if someone attempts suicide or is grieving someone who did, saying "sewer slide" isn't going to protect them from any of the feelings. a murder victim's family isn't going to feel better bc you said "unalived" instead of murdered. if anything, it's just extremely invalidating and othering. it's saying "what happened to you is so bad that i won't even say the word," which is NOT trauma-informed care. you are not protecting survivors/victims when you self-censor. the ONLY things you protect when you self-censor are the puritanical ideologies that are being encouraged by rich fascists who want your money and obedience

⭐Taking commissions again!⭐

Gonna open up 2 slots for the time being... but maybe I'll open a couple more later. If ur interested in grabbing one, you can head on over to my Vgen! : >

Then there is the YouTuber talking about Transformers, casually dropping the "Iraq war aesthetic" like it's a color palette. Desert punk. Military core. A vibe. This is what happens when your country hasn't had a war on its own soil in living memory; the violence becomes media, a backdrop for childhood toys. The explosions are no longer the sound of mothers screaming; they are cool action sequences. They are digesting the visual debris of massacre as a nostalgic fashion choice, scraping the trauma off and compressing it into a genre for their retro-futurist fantasies. The apocalypse becomes a mood board.

And finally, the girl recounting celebrity love triangles from her childhood, flippantly mentioning how the U.S. was "busy with the Iraq war or whatever." Or whatever. That single phrase is the thesis statement of American innocence. Over a million dead, a region destabilized for a century, an endless river of grief; and for her, it was the commercial break between pop culture segments. It didn't raise her rent. It didn't stop her Wi-Fi. The violence is geo-locked to brown skin and distant deserts, just background noise like a refrigerator humming. She has the luxury of forgetting because the machine doesn't eat her children, it eats yours.

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I'm really really really really really really really sorry I'm doing this today. I'm almost definitely going to lose my home. fees are paid up bills are paid up but my roommate made a scene thats 100% going to count as several violations and we're going to be evicted

you don't have to feel pressured to do anything. I'm fed up with begging and with feeling so terrible about having to do it all the time. it is what it is. if you want to help out the information is the same as usual. right now it's just. survival money

c*shapp: $koenk01

Still one of the best animations I've ever done. Took just under a week and was equal parts fun and challenging. So here are some process passes! The full version had too many colors so I had to do some compression T0T

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And this forces you to decide whether your autonomy matters to you more than the approval of the group - while they'll still act like you're on thin ice either way, if you give in at this point they know you're theirs forever, because now they've established a foothold, you've shown a moral weakness, which they will brand you with so it can be used against you in the future ("hey RICE-addict here doesn't want help break into the city records office") to force you to double-down and isolate you further.

As I've gone over my car is kind of fucked right now and not drivable or repairable at the price I can afford. I'm fundraising for a month's transit costs roughly, the expense of the tows/"repair"/first week of ubers, and for some of the down-payment. Ubers on my commute average $25-30, and I have a little saved for the down-payment. For this week the goal is $250 at least, as well as ideally the unmet goal from previous weeks. I'm making weekly posts in hopes that this will encourage donations. I'm also dealing with unexpected expenses and trying to secure housing after getting out of a hostile and discrimatory housing situation with my landlord.

Unmet goal from previous weeks: 254

Combined goal of previous weeks and this week: 504

$FaeKhawal and ko-fi.com/rosebijoumme are my paylinks. I prefer cashapp because kofi takes a cut from me. I also have venmo and PayPal but those have my dead name, so dm me if you want to use those. You can also go directly through gfm, which will be linked in a reblog.