lowkey like everything i tremendously struggle with mentally is the result of my perception of the world and thought patterns. -_- hmmmmmmmmm but damn thats pretty deep down no wonder im struggling

my problem is that i do infact want to go out and do more shit but by the time it gets to friday and the workweek is done i am almost never up to going out that night. And then half the weekend i feel like a corpse. best i can do is meeting up once a weekend with a friend or two and hopping on a call to play games and shit. the balance between having shit to do and burning out is so incredibly delicate working 40 hours a week. i like my job but i hate that it takes so much out of me for a measly 17 an hour