I’m too tired to kill myself and too tired to save myself. I’m too god damn tired to do anything except lay here drowning in my misery.
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I’m too tired to kill myself and too tired to save myself. I’m too god damn tired to do anything except lay here drowning in my misery.
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I regret opening up to some people ; they didn’t deserve to know me like that
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Our culture has a tendency to romanticize mental illness and I really hate that. Anxiety is not the cute quirky girl with glasses who has a cute laugh and is super awkward. Depression is not the quiet shy girl who drinks black coffee and reads books and only listens to vinyl. Anxiety is waking up in the middle of the night in a panic because you forgot to do that one thing and you feel like it’s going to ruin your life. Depression is screaming and crying and laying on bathroom floors at 3am because what the fuck else are you supposed to do. Depression is pushing away the people who love you and hurting your parents more than you’ll ever know. Mental illness is not the latest fashion trend for you to buy at your favorite store. You can’t just decide you want one one day and then give it back when it goes out of style. A mental illness sticks with you for the rest of your life. It is not a new patch on your vintage jean jacket. And no, that cute boy is not going to want to try to “fix” you. You are not broken. Mental illness is a disease. It is a problem. And it needs to be taken seriously. You really want a mental disease? No, no you don’t.
Our culture has a tendency to romanticize mental illness and I really hate that. Anxiety is not the cute quirky girl with glasses who has a cute laugh and is super awkward. Depression is not the quiet shy girl who drinks black coffee and reads books and only listens to vinyl. Anxiety is waking up in the middle of the night in a panic because you forgot to do that one thing and you feel like it’s going to ruin your life. Depression is screaming and crying and laying on bathroom floors at 3am because what the fuck else are you supposed to do. Depression is pushing away the people who love you and hurting your parents more than you’ll ever know. Mental illness is not the latest fashion trend for you to buy at your favorite store. You can’t just decide you want one one day and then give it back when it goes out of style. A mental illness sticks with you for the rest of your life. It is not a new patch on your vintage jean jacket. And no, that cute boy is not going to want to try to “fix” you. You are not broken. Mental illness is a disease. It is a problem. And it needs to be taken seriously. You really want a mental disease? No, no you don’t.
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Imagine A Series of Unfortunate Events but with the Bobs Burgers kids.
Borderline Personality Disorder isn’t being cute and ‘clingy’ and ‘adorably needy’. Being with (romantic or otherwise) someone with BPD isn’t akin to taking care of a pet. BPD isn’t an ‘aw it’s so endearing that they need me so badly’ type of thing.
BPD is a mental illness that is a conglomeration of several different tendencies and it’s not easy to diagnose. You don’t just decide you have it, just like you don’t decide you’re depressed because you had a bad day, or you don’t decide you’re bipolar because your mood changes quickly sometimes. Believe me, you don’t want it.
BPD is turning nothing into everything, is knowing you’re being irrational and not being able to stop regardless, is suppressing breakdowns for fear of being abusive or of manipulating the person you’re talking to into having to take care of you when they really don’t want to.
It’s thinking someone doesn’t care about you anymore because they made a new friend. It’s automatically registering new people as a threat. It’s a fear of abandonment and rejection that’s damn near omnipresent. It’s being able to shift from ‘I love you so much!’ to ‘I don’t give a fuck, I hate you, I don’t even want to talk to you’ and back at the drop of a hat.
It’s finding identity in a drastic hair change, and then feeling unsafe and desperately trying to fix it before you have to go out. It’s seeing someone you adore and trying to emulate them because you have no idea who you are. It’s waking up and trying to be a new person every day. Go vegan, go goth, go hipster, go glamour, cut your hair, change your makeup, gain weight, lose weight, and never feel quite there. Ever.
It’s comprehending ‘love’ as ‘pity’ and wanting to rip yourself apart if their tone is all too casual when your friend or love interest is returning compliments or affection. It’s regretting saying anything about your mood and desperately trying to turn the conversation around while simultaneously NEEDING to get it out. It’s wanting to bleed yourself dry as opposed to cry in someone’s arms because, at least then, they don’t have to clean your wounds for you. They won’t hate you. They won’t be annoyed.
It’s the constant battle, every time you get upset, of, “Is this worth being sad about? Is it worth talking about? What is more abusive, talking about this or hiding it? If I tell them I’ll bring them down and I’ll guilt trip them and they will resent me and it will all be my fault. If I don’t, I’m a disgusting liar, I’m manipulative, I’m untrustworthy.”
It’s wondering if you’re faking your symptoms. It’s disassociating and feeling like a ghost for days. It’s feeling like you aren’t real, and then wishing you weren’t. It’s fear, a lack of self, and about a million different thoughts running through your head at all times. It’s trying to live for the people you love as opposed to yourself. It’s feeling suicidal and then feeling bad for feeling suicidal because, whoops, you’re being manipulative.
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This is too much!
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We’re always thinking that someday we will be happy, but happiness is a mood not a destination, it’s like being tired or hungry, it’s not permanent, it comes and goes and that’s okay and I feel like if people thought of it that way they’d find happiness a lot more often
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why is this so hard to understand
Tattoo by Adrienne Alexander, D&M Tattoo, Edmonton, Alberta, Canada.
What was it about relationships that made you feel so vulnerable? Oh, right. A relationship. In any relationship, you put yourself out there. You exposed all of your sensitive nerve endings and your heart and you just had to hope that you trusted the right person.
Courtney Cole, Every Last Kiss (via psych-facts)
I'm stressed out and I just wish I could smoke a bowl

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“Is This Healthy” is a comic that I made for an independent study in which I looked deeper into the idea of health, mental, physical, and emotional as it relates to myself.
This project was extremely personal and I thank any of you who take the time to read it