Could I just pay someone a monthly fee to answer the phone whenever I call and to basically be my friend? I don’t want to just rant and vent to them, I want someone I can call and talk about this funny video I saw, something cute my cats did, or about a movie I just watched. I want to talk about the hobbies I pick up and drop, what I’m doing next career/job wise, and whether I /should/ do something different with my life. I want someone I can brag to, tease, and on occasion have them laugh at my jokes and I hope it’s sincere because otherwise no one thinks I’m funny. Even if I’m paying someone I want something like this and I don’t know how else to get it.

I still probably care too much what people think but if I know someone hates me it’s a relief because then I /know/. No more second-guessing and over-thinking all our interactions together. It’s like I give myself permission to move on from wasting brain-space on that person.

Those feels when you're making a good plan for the protagonist to do something cool but then, eventually, realize something kind of obvious the antagonist can do to stop said cool thing. :(

I work at a nursing home and one of the old ladies there was watching Supernatural. She kept trying to get my attention and kept gesturing to it, telling me about what was happening. There was no sound but when I realized what it was I told her which person was Sam, which is Dean, and that they’re brothers that fight against various supernatural threats. She found this all pretty interesting, maybe it helped clear up some confusion as she usually watches true crime shows. She then gestured to Sam, telling me about the big rifle he’d been using earlier. I explained, “Oh yeah. He uses that to shoot salt.” She nodded, more of the show making sense. She’d apparently seen it a couple of times and now that I explained the gist of it she liked it even more. It’s weirdly fun to run into fellow fans of things.

You ever do some tarot spreads for your characters and find your deck ships another pairing than what you do? Deep down, I know the other pairing would be better for the parties involved but I still feel like shipping the other one anyway.