Zen.

Today was much much much MUCH better than most. I’ll start from when I woke up.

Woke up the usual time @ 5 in the morning. I told myself the night before that I would make my ugly christmas sweater that I saw from pinterest. That freakin sweater was what made me late to class. Not that I cared tho. I knew at 0 period, we would just be rehearsing for our winter concert. Anyways, I curled my hair and stuffs. Got to school and recieved many compliments from my reindeer headband that I bought from dollar store. People really do not shop at the dollar store, wow. Second period was a drag bc we got to study but I obviously didn’t use it well. Spoke about smash brawl and video game theories. Eh nothing much. Third period was a drag too. Fourth was pretty funny. Took a pic with saroni but I absolutely disliked the way i looked. I had J crop me out (unless he saved it somewhere and replace back onto thr powerpoint smh)

Lunch. So much fun. I didn’t feel unhappy for once. I had R do the ugly xmas sweater challenge thing. He ended up winning. Yay! A coincidence is that the girl he got partnered up with had the same nickname as me. Woop de doo. Smh she had her arm wrapped around his. All I could hear was, “ooo you got comp.” Ohkay J. Anyways he won a gift card and went to retrieve it. I thought he was done with his lunch so I threw it away. Ends up he wasn’t. Oops. I took a bunch of nice pictures. It was so awkward with R. Didn’t know if I should get close with him since my bff was taking the pic. I’m still uncomfortable with that but I’ll talk about that later.

5th period was a drag, grade papers for frieden. And 6 period was okay. I messed up on my speaking final. A whole 20 points gone. 30/50. Embarrassing. After class, I went to hug R. Too qute. I gave him the chocolate covered pretzel to make up for lunch and the goodie bag he bought me. Okay. Here’s my concern: way to make a girl feel extra special. I thought he only bought me a goodie bag. Turns out, he bought my bff one too. ???? Doesn’t this give you ideas? Like I know you’re getting close and all but damn dude, way to make a girl feel fucking special. I really don’t think they know what they’re doing. Unintentionally. After choir dress rehearsal, as I was walking to my car, G came up to me. Had an awkward start but woah man. We both moved on. Mutually. And it’s not awkward! He asked me about R and I told him my main concern about my bff being close to R. He agrees with me. That you’re bff should NOT be extremely close to your romantic partner. Like honestly, i felt so comfortable speaking to him about it. I feel like I can’t speak to the others about it bc 1) they’re close with R 2) they’ve never had a romantic encounter before therefore their “advice” isn’t really advice. Lol then he told me that we started like this one girl who is a freshman. So funny how I was into him, now it seems like were close friends. I dig it. I dig it a lot. Idk me and G had a total connection in which I can speak to him for real advice.

Later onto the night I went to go eat some pho with thai tea. So good. Then later on again, you know when you have a sudden realization about shiz that doesn’t add up. Yeah. My bff sent me a pic of her new background. Her recent contacts were R. I was texting R at the time. Yo way to make a girl feel special again. Smh. SMFH. idek anymore. In conclusion, I do NOT think it’s a good idea for your bff and romantic partner to be in a close relationship. It just goes downhill from there. Overall 8/10 is my rating of today.