WIRED WRONG

I apparently have over 100 games in my library. Lord, I need a life.

A Perfect Circle

Haven't been on here for awhile. Had another operation, and still recovering. Honestly, I spend most of my time talking to my friend Cody, generally through voice chat through ps4. Video games, movies, and tv shows via amazon are generally how I spend my time. I'm still struggling with addiction, self-harm, depression, and PTSD. Looking for a counselor now. It's been rough. But I've got some really close friends who make sure to tell me they love me, no matter how irrational and selfish I act. Spent last night in the ER and saw my surgeon today, and luckily the pain has calmed down some. I miss the people I used to talk to on here. I hope anyone who reads this is doing well. I will be okay. A day at a time.

So much has gone on this year. Not going to go into it in detail. Suffice to say it's been rough.

No need to be sorry. My health will never be normal, and pushing through makes me stronger in the long run. No matter how often I say I want to give up, I don't.I appreciate the sentiment, though.

Run away!!!!

Creepy as hell. Frankly, I think it and Resident Evil 4 are the best in the series. My friend has beaten it 3 times already. Just motivates me to push on, though it's maddeningly difficult.

It's just as well. Been busy going to the hospital or talking to Cody. Got Resident Evil 7 today. Graphics are great, eerie atmosphere. Haven't played enough to really review it. Seeing Passenger in March, and Gabriel Inglasias, as well. So stoked!!! Found the funniest shirt today...it's a parody of NSync and the characters from FF 15. A lot of comments about the characters elude to them being gay. Stupidity. They look fine to me. Their outfits don't look as odd as in FF X. Refreshing battle system, compared to others in the series. Though one character in FF 15 looks like a hipster to me. But I digress. Time for my ambien and valium.

Spent last night in the ER, due to my feeding tube site hurting really bad. Turns out I have yet another infection, and can't even use it now...needs to be replaced ASAP. They didn't want to pull it out themselves, because the hole would start closing up and require more surgery. I also have to get blood work done tomorrow, the two infections are still in my chest, and my infectious disease doctor wants to try another medication. Then on Wednesday I have to get another transfusion. Ouch, ouch, ouch. My sister's cat had to be put down on Friday. Incredibly difficult for her..she was hysterical when she called to tell mom. He was a very affectionate and sweet kitty. :( But she's already looking for another, and found one that is absolutely gorgeous...if it works out, I hope he's a comfort for her. Initially I thought she'd need to wait and let herself grieve..but I suppose not. Two family friends were both diagnosed with cancer...his is terminal. We're also discussing moving out of this house, that we've lived in for 24 years. A one story, because mAintaining a two story has become too stressful. Have to get the house sellable, and that'll take awhile. My dad is being sued, due to a car accident roughly a year ago. Trial is in March. So, a lot of shit to deal with.

Had to go to the ER again last night. Got home and found out my sister's cat went into kidney failure. Luckily, he's improving. Then her boyfriend's grandfather had a bad stroke, and his sister's boyfriend stepfather died of a heart attack. :/

I might actually have something to do for Halloween. If so, I'll be dressed up as Raven (DC character)

But I rarely check tumblr these days. I'm usually spending way too much time playing video games. Got a ps4 and I love it. The PlayStation network is being a bitch tonight, though. Playing Batman: Arkham Knight at the moment. Wish they'd get Arkham Asylum on ps4, and the other one...can't think straight right now. Arkham City? Too lazy to Google.