Muzzled Mutt .

i can't recognise if i'm being disrespectful at all due to autism and this also has made me unable to tell when other's treat me disrespectfully . though , when i do it's usually a little bit of confusion ( because what did i do to deserve this ?? ) and anger . most of the time , however , it's just nothing because i barely notice it .

when i was 8 or 9 my dad made a batch of weed cookies , like some really fucking strong ones . one of them would get you high as a kite . well , i had 10 of them . my entire body was numb but i still felt like i was in an extreme amount of pain , i could barely move and when i did it felt like i was both extremely heavy and floating all at once , i got my first memorable hallucination and one of my dogs attempted to piss on me ! then once that was all done , i went back to my mother for my week with her , and i told her about it even though my father told me not to and upon hearing this my mother started trying to drag my dad to court , i got dragged to the doctor's for a bunch of drug tests , i got cornered by a few different really shitty therapists so they could try extract all the information out of me and my dad said he wanted to kill himself because of me .

you really are picking up your training fast , good boy . you're missing one crucial part , though , the action . i'm laying in bed , completely open for you to kill and fuck my corpse , my dogs might try to stop you but a man dead set on getting what he wants is a force of nature . so , c'mon , come take what you want .

i want to engage in all of it but to varying degrees , though there's definitely one or two that i've talked about that i don't actually want to engage in that have slipped my mind . i don't really talk about forcemasc much but it's one of my favourite kinks and i love being forcemasced and forcemascing . i also say i'm into misogyny but i'm not really into it outside of my transmasc supremacy and forcemasc kinks . i'm also both weirdly more into and less into gore / snuff at the same time , i say i want to engage in it , but i would much prefer watching and encouraging someone else to gore and snuff someone else while i watch ; but i would also gladly partake in it myself .