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affricative--collective

how much suffering do i have to go through before i can be forgiven?

none. do better in the future.

none. you'll never be forgiven.

as much as you caused others.

it will never be enough.

none of the above.

Voting ended onNov 17, 2024

its-just-hyper

Stop fucking contacting kids. You do not deserve pity.

affricative--collective

how much suffering do i have to go through before i can be forgiven?

none. do better in the future.

none. you'll never be forgiven.

as much as you caused others.

it will never be enough.

none of the above.

Voting ended onNov 17, 2024

iloveleeks2

come on man you were trying 2 groom kids.

iloveleeks2

if you want me 2 be honest i think you shld stop trying 2 cling 2 old bonds & get the fuck out. were not 4giving you no matter the penance. times arrow marches on you shld genuinely, (& i say This Part in particular without malice) consider restarting after some DEEEEEEP self reflection & self betterment. theres nothing good 2 be gained from this. let it go & cut yr losses.

affricative--collective

how much suffering do i have to go through before i can be forgiven?

none. do better in the future.

none. you'll never be forgiven.

as much as you caused others.

it will never be enough.

none of the above.

Voting ended onNov 17, 2024

trudle-the-faerie

You don't get forgiven for grooming kids. You especially don't get forgiven when you proceed to go after more kids after getting ousted for doing it in the first place. I hope you're suffering as much as you say you are.

affricative--collective

how much suffering do i have to go through before i can be forgiven?

none. do better in the future.

none. you'll never be forgiven.

as much as you caused others.

it will never be enough.

none of the above.

Voting ended onNov 17, 2024

trudle-the-faerie

epprbcu

Kschwal, the mod of Shady and probably some other blogs I don't remember, has been identified as an actual pedophile. Unfortunately it is still technically legal in his home country.

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affricative--collective

how much suffering do i have to go through before i can be forgiven?

none. do better in the future.

none. you'll never be forgiven.

as much as you caused others.

it will never be enough.

none of the above.

Voting ended onNov 17, 2024

collectibles-menu

you CANNOT be pulling this shit to try to garner some sympathy from ANYONE who wouldn't know what you did.

you were caught grooming epprbcu members as young as 13, dragging unwitting participants into kink rp, and went to try to downplay what happened after being banned with people who were out of the loop. you're not a martyr, you're an immature manchild who can't get through his head the fact that he's 18 and that he needs to fucking act like it.

frankly you should feel lucky we didn't immediately come out with this publicly, but this was the straw that broke the camel's back.

Well, he sure is taking the news smoothly. So long, space cowboy.

#ooc #kinda

There's angst in the air. There's something coming...

#(oh; somethings coming alright..)#(YOUR MOM)#(AYOOOO-*is shot dead*)#ooc #joke post

kabigon143

Whenever I talk about whatever media I’m into at the moment imagine I am presenting the characters to you like this

loveisinthebat

Release Them!

ampersand-echo

-UNJUSTLY CONTAINED.-

hashbang-mods

that's what you get for stealing my voice

ampersand-echo

-Ah bugger off, I gave it back didn't I?-

hashbang-mods

still stole it

ampersand-echo

-"Oh no something happened and then it unhappened bringing us back to status quo. This is awful and I will never recover."-

hashbang-mods

you giving me my voice back didn't give me back all the time i had to deal without it!

ampersand-echo

-And you apologizing for screeching into my cave and insulting my former partner doesn't undo either of those things, so woopty-doo.-

hashbang-mods

former?

ampersand-echo

[Echo momentarily has a more civil demeanour, and nods]

-Discontinued character.-

hashbang-mods

oh so we're just acknowledging tumblr now. sure

ampersand-echo

-Well, if it ain't canon, don't fix it, right?-

hashbang-mods

well if it ain't canon surely my mod won't mind-

[yes i fucking will your clash blaster explodes in your face. no killing other people's characters]

ampersand-echo

-Oh! You know, I kind of appreciate that.-

hashbang-mods

[gotchu fam ⊟] ]

YOU CAN HEAR ANTON???

ampersand-echo

-Apparently.-

[For the vibes of this, yes.]

hashbang-mods

tsk. everyone can hear those nowadays

coloredmess

imagine

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a-mimic-and-a-jester

WILL I TRIED

coloredmess

it is now

december

Time slips from my hands a lot, doesn't it?

I'd try to keep up, but this world is a race I have no place in..

Ah, whatever. Not like that's anything new.

#mesa answers

coloredmess

holy shit have you seen what's happening outside

…oh wait. you can't.

I can!

Unless you mean the real world, then no. I can't.

#mesa answers

probably

hm. hm hm.

#mesa answers

i think they got the wrong guy

unless they're a troll in which case they can go straight to [redacted] no added fee

Maybe.

#mesa answers

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coloredmess

Hey Mesa, what's up?

KSCHWAL. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. WHAT HAVE I MISSED??

affricative--collective

Depends on what was ðe last þing you remember!

coloredmess

it was.. august. I think? August... 9. Last thing I remember was talking about making a worse anonymous gimmick blog to mess with glumbo? I was talking with you, Tophat, and Knight. I think Mousebrained and Blair were also there?

affricative--collective

Hmm... ðat was a while ago, wasn't it?

Yeah, more ðan two monþs!

Were you even ðere during ðe Swap!Verse arc?

coloredmess

No?? God. Who's idea was it to introduce a swapverse? Who the hell is Letzt?? The very presence of some of these swap characters fucks with our plans for our characters!

affricative--collective

Ðat... was my idea, actually.

And hey, it wasn't ðat bad!

coloredmess

God- I live in the same fucking house as Doc'. What's even worse is that he's been actively fucking up the plans i had for Prof's arcs. It's like he knows what's going to happen and is going out of his way to do so! It's infuriating.

affricative--collective

Uh... you control what he does. Just have him NOT do ðat.

coloredmess

What? He's not mine! Aren't the swap!characters just knockoffs by some of the new writers?

affricative--collective

Well, I do control Item Two... I guess I just assumed you controlled Doc'.

Oh by ðe way, did you know Shady actually managed to escape ðe game?

(a copy of him, at least...)

coloredmess

What?? I thought we were saving those arcs for much later?? Those are endgame type arcs! Why so soon??

affricative--collective

Well, we already have characters outside ðe game.

And, taking down Elysium is... not going to be easy.

coloredmess

Well I figured we already have characters outside, like the players! But why have we already started getting NPC's out of the game?

affricative--collective

Cause why not! Also Hash just got out too.

coloredmess

God- what even- Ugh. This shit is just getting out of hand. Please tell me we still have some semblance of a plan.

affricative--collective

Haha, you wish!

coloredmess

...

So. What? We're just leaving shit up to coin flips? Did we just. Stop planning shit?

affricative--collective

I sure did!

Okay well I do have some plans but ðey're like very loose

Just, random minor and major events

Keep an eye on shady ;)

coloredmess

You vague bastard- Fine. A loose plan is better than no plan. God. What the hell. Fucking fuck.

affricative--collective

Also... can you see what happens outside? Ðat's pretty important too

coloredmess

Outside? The game? Or [tumblr]? Either way, I haven't exactly been able to see beyond them.

affricative--collective

Unnnnfortunate! oh well

coloredmess

Has the discord even noticed that we're are missing? by we I mean Me, Rat and Blair.

Also, are there any others trapped in here? Or is it just the three of us?

affricative--collective

....do you really want to know?

coloredmess

Vague questions like that tend to solicit one specific answer. That being, yes. Yes I do.

affricative--collective

You're... not actually Mesa. You're a character, like Prof and Doc'.

And ðe ACTUAL Mesa is ðe one controlling you.

What, did you þink people could just... jump þrough layers of reality like ðat?

coloredmess

I'm..

affricative--collective

yyyup.

Hey, now you get to know what being an exclam is like!

Fun, isn't it?

...

coloredmess

I'm a fucking self insert. I'm a fucking. Self. Insert.

I- I-

Hah. HAHAH. HAHAHAHAHAHAH. OF FUCKING COURSE! Why didn't I realise that sooner!? Its jusy so FUNNY. HOW STUPID I AM. HOW STUPID THIS ALL IS.

Nothing I do MATTERS! Nothing I ever DID MATTERED!

GOD.

FUCKING.

DAMN IT.

affricative--collective

Hey now, come on.

[+1 hug]

What you do still matters, right? It's all on [tumblr], people can still see it.

coloredmess

I'm a walking CLOWN SHOW. Upholding and enforcing a plan that doesn't even EXIST anymore. Why even BOTHER at this point?

My existence is a LIE, my purpose is NON-EXISTENT, and my efforts were for NOTHING.

I- HA. HAHAHAHAH.

HA HA HA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HA HAAAA.

IM GONNA FUCKING KILL SOMEONE.

affricative--collective

oh come onnn i'm not dealing wið ðat again

mmmaybe don't?

also. you're in exclamania, of course you aren't real. if you were you'd be in your house

coloredmess

god, why didnt i realise sooner?

If every thing i do is inconsequential, meaningless, worthless, than nothing i do from this point on matters either, right? My free will is LIE, and at the same time my future is fucking NON-EXISTENT. I'm being puppeteered by a fucking BUFFOON!

WHY EVEN TRY!?

...

I'm going to kill someone. and it wont even matter! right? RIGHT?

HAHAH! Who should be first? OH! I KNOW! If I'm a SELF-FUCKING-INSERT, then it stands to reason that MY favorite characters are HIS favorite characters! HAHAHAHHHH!!

Who's gonna miss those bastards anyways? ME!? HAH! HAHAHAH! HHHAAAAAHHHHHAHAHAHAHAH-

affricative--collective

Sorry, but...

[+4 indestructible triangular walls, in a tetrahedral shape around you]

I can't let you do ðat.

You'll stay ðere until you calm down, 'kay?

coloredmess

FUCK. FUCKING FUCK.

affricative--collective

Hey, if you want to talk about it wið someone I can ask Shady if he's available. He feels like you do too sometimes...

coloredmesa

..No. Just. Fucking leave me here. None of this fucking matters anymore.

Not like it ever did, apparently.

affricative--collective

Well, i guess I'll stay here until you feel better.

....

...

Do you want a hug?

coloredmess

Y- No.

affricative--collective

You suuuuure?

coloredmess

No- I MEAN YES.

I meant yes, I'm sure.

affricative--collective

Alriiiiight ðen!

[I start walking away. And slowing down.]

coloredmess

. . .

(He wants to say something, but he doesn't. He's resigned himself to just sulk in a corner.)

(What a baby.)

affricative--collective

[I exit ðe room and instantly reenter from ðe oðer side. Ðen I sit next to Mesa and wait for him to say someþing.]

coloredmess

.....

Did you really just... pull a Sans?

affricative--collective

Eh. More of a pacman ðan a sans.

coloredmess

Fair enough.

... Why are you still here anyways? Don't you have other things to do? More important?

affricative--collective

I'm pretty good at multitasking.

Ðe fact ðat I'm not here and I see everyþing you do in slow-motion also helps....

coloredmess

Right, I forgot we're usually near omnipresent.

Or, well. You're near omnipresent, seeing as my memories as a mod are fucking fake.

affricative--collective

I... wouldn't call ðem fake, honestly.

Ðey are events ðat actually happened, after all.

Just... maybe not to you?

coloredmess

Not to me..

Who even AM I? If I can't trust my memories to tell me who I am, then do I even HAVE an identity? Or am I just the idiot who didn't figure this out sooner? Cause I wouldn't blame anyone for thinking so!

affricative--collective

Let's start by asking, what do you know about yourself?

Your name is Mesa, and you're a character now.

And unfortunately, ðere's no way to undo ðat. So, what do we do?

coloredmess

Besides being what's commonly regarded as the lowest form of character writing, I'm also the asshole who pushed away everyone I knew. I guess I can also bend reality, so I at least got that going for me.

affricative--collective

Wait, ðat's not ðe same þing.

I mean, how often do you see an auþor insert ðemself in ðeir own creation?

(One book in particular comes to mind... þanks, Hofstadter.)

...pushed away everyone? how did ðat happen?

coloredmess

Mouse is scared of me, and Des probably is too. Ray hates me, and Rat has clearly had enough of me. The only one I haven't pushed away is Prof, but one; I almost never interact with him cause I thought it risked altering the plan too much, but seeing as its almost non-existent, I basically distanced myself for no reason.

And two; he's basically my landlord, but not evil. And by that I mean I stay at his place rent free.

affricative--collective

...I don't know if I can help wið ðat...

But... I know you can fix it.

If you put in ðe effort to change, people will open up to you

coloredmess

Is it even fixable at this point? It was a god damn disaster, why would Ray or Mouse even give me a chance?

affricative--collective

I'll be honest. I don't know what you did. I don't know if ðey'll forgive you.

But what I do know, is ðat if you work for it, you will be given anoðer chance.

coloredmess

I don't know about that.