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I don’t want this to be real i hope it was all a dream and i hope to wake up

Truthfully, I worry about the safety of us if memories of them are recovered. I am aware that some of us are very much willing to uproot everything just to go back, and I pray that that never happens

I want to remember so bad it makes me sick i want proof i want to know i want the clear narrative why wont you tell me i know it will break me but please i know nothing abt this life ive spawned into

Does anyone have resources for suspecting oa/oea/ramcoa? I have been suspecting experience of oa for a while, and im not really allowed access to any memories (Im not going to try and push the memories or question too much or say anything definitive for now though). Ive been trying to search for things but there seems to be very limited resources.

Im not really posting here very much but just as a notr i have still been the same super mental ill ✌️

Why r people so mean and cruel and why am i excluded and out of place everywhere

I am going to cut all the excess fat off my body

I HAVE NEEDED THERAPY AND MEDS AND TREATMENR FOR EVERYTHING MY ENTIRE LIFE BUT NO ONE GIVES ME IT BC IM ‘TOO SEVERE’ OR THE WAITING LISTS R FUCKED OR BC OF MY AGE OR WHATEVER FUCKASS REASON IDC ANYMORE IM NEVER GOING TO HEAL I WILL JUST SPIRAL FOREVER SND DIE

I WANNA DIE I WANAN DIE I WANNA KILL MYSELD I WANNNA DIE I WANNA DIE

I am doubting all my memories again and the whole plurality thing again

I’m so filthy disgusting gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross

I HATE YOU I HATW WHAT YOU DID TO ME THE TRAINING THE PROCEDURES I HATE HATE HATE WHAT YOU MATDE OF ME I HATE HOW YOU BROKE ME