𝐂𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐜𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐠𝐚𝐫

I don’t think it’s a good thing for humans to have this level of access to memories like pictures and videos and conversations from the past that we can look over i think we were meant to forget some things

the american obsession with ur love being Witnessed is so sick like public airport confessions of love and restaurant proposals and everyone clapping when you kiss in movies that is so wrong and disgusting i don't want a love that only feels real when there are witnesses present i want a quiet love i want to be kissed around the corner i want to feel content with my love when i am alone

It's october rn and I have been missing you from many octobers honestly this one is no different, I miss you and I have read you more than my favourite webcomics or any poem from Nikita gill or sylvia plath , I miss my bestfriend and the man I love more than my breath and it breaks my heart how cruel fate is to us ...you know whenever I'm hurt and I'm crying your thoughts pass through my head and I just think that I could have told you this sometimes I just wanna cry while hugging you because life is heavy and it only eased out when you were here, I get happy when you are here and I think we need each other I sometimes think do you cry as well !? Missing me? Wanting to breakdown in my arms about everything that has ever gone wrong ? Would you ever tell me or does your pride get in between that as well !? I told you I was reading " I fell in love with hope" the character neo reminded me of you ,so stubborn and prideful, and like Sam's boyfriend you are always oh so charming even in gut wrenching pain , flirting with me through your eyes , touching me, holding my wrist or my hands softly, making the stars and the sea ⛵ jealous of how much more you know about romance than them ... it's truly enviable mo nighean , anyway happy october love🍁🥀!

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