•FLØØP•

It’s hard to get better... but I’ll get better.. one day ima be okay and I won’t be in this cycle..

Two and a half years later… I’m outta the cycle. I’m finally better 🩶

I hate how good I feel whenever I take cocaine as much as I love how good I feel whenever I take cocaine.

cocaine is lowkey evil af, every single time i sleep i have dreams about coke lmaooo

I didn’t love it for any other reason other than it was my one thing and one thing only. It was my one thing to claim as mine. It was my one thing no one knew about. It was the one thing by my side at my worst time... and that’s when I grew a different type of attachment for it.

I have an issue letting go of this person and I think that’s why I struggle with sobriety..

I feel like I’m at this point in my life where I have one foot in recovery and one foot in active addiction/total self destruction and I’m just stuck never moving forward 

I feel like I’m at this point in my life where I have one foot in recovery and one foot in active addiction/total self destruction and I’m just stuck never moving forward 

38 days clean now...