let's share orange slices

Long story short I went through extensive therapy and treated my daddy issues so I no longer feel anything towards older men.

this is what I decided would be best for me but this is not me telling anyone what they are or what they should do, all I hope is that everyone is doing well and are safe and happy.

I remember a lot of you guys would say this when I was more active but this community was such a supportive and real and welcoming community so thank you for being there all the times I felt alone.

my old info post -

I'm not sure exactly what the cataclyst was to end this seemingly year long derealisation I've had - probably the ongoings in palestine, congo, yemen, sudan etc. and stopping worshipping people (no person deserves this amount of attention, especially not old men like srsly I WOKE UP- I'm obsessing like this over other fickle human beings that play with my feelings? where's my self-respect???) - but I'm removing things that no longer serve me, that don't contribute to my happiness and evolving as a human being in all facets of life. that includes this blog, that includes obsessing over my teachers, romanticising suffering and this manic state of mind, wanting to fit this weird aesthetic as well. having a tc destroyed me, I've gone into detail about it on this blog already. I've compromised my morals (in ways I can't even talk about), my interests, likes, passions and the will to live due to it - this may seem very dramatic, but due to trauma in the past, I was so attached to mr. b that I barely recognised myself anymore. I'm not proud of the person I've become (seriously - from a psychological standpoint, my feelings and way of thinking were completely valid and it's okay for me to feel that way, but to actually pursue them?? refuse help? I was batshit insane, literally horryifing. I'm sorry for my younger self, just wanna hug him re-reading these posts istg) , and I'm not happy living that life, so I'd like to get better- I finally have the will and genuine want for that - so goodbye! forever, hopefully. I hope ya'll live a fruitful life and don't get as bad as me. it'll get better, trust me.