YewTree

Stuck at my mother’s house rn after disappearing for 2 months to get top surgery and suddenly my depression has returned 10x worse than before. At least I have my dog and cat back but at the cost of my sanity

Fuck it I’m relapsing on everything (except cigs because ✨health✨)

Anyone else just reuse old bandages until they fall apart when cleaning up SH cuts? Like ik I’m supposed to use clean ones but I’ve had some of these bandages for over 3 years now, I just wrap them over toilet paper or whatever to keep it in place so my clothes don’t get stained.

Waking up after cutting session that you were too tired to clean up is like waking up to a murder scene I stg. Blood EVERYWHERE, on the blankets, clothes, sheets, towels, my body. Sharp objects in my bed way too close to my pillow, everything feels like shit, very fuzzy memory of what exactly I did.