Ilaria’s Diary

1. Kent - We Need To Eat

2. Carbon Carousel - Skinny

3. ElysianSoul - Waitig to be Weightless

4. Nicole Dollanganger - Please Eat

5. Nicole 12 -Ballerina

6. Fiona Apple - Paper Bag

7. Dollyrots - Skinny

8. Mellow Melange - Anorexia Nervosa

9. Stage - Live Happy, Live With Anorexia

10. Gianmarco Leone - Anorexia

11. Corinna Fugate - Blood Red Bracelet

12. Skylar Grey - Invisible

13. Picture Me Broken - Skin and Bones

14. r00k - Eat

15. Svavar Knútur - Emotional Anorexic

16. r00k - Anorexic

17. Huntingtons - Annie’s Anorexic

18. Pulp - Anorexic Beauty

19. Silverchair - Ana’s Song (Open Fire)

20. Saturday Supercade - Penny is an Anorexic

21. Eleanor McEvoy - Sophie

22. Polly Scattergood - I Hate the Way

23. Los Campesinos! - The Sea Is A Good Place To Think Of The Future

24. Dead Celebrity Status - Someone I Once Knew

25. Ted Leo and the Pharmacists - Me and Mia

26. Geri Karlstrom - Starving for Attention

27. Lisa Loeb - She’s Falling Apart

28. Maria Mena - Eyesore

29. Mickey Avalon - So Rich, So Pretty

30. Filter - Skinny

31. Pompeii - Numbers

32. Outcast Youth - Genevieve

33. King Adorable - Big Isn’t Beautiful

34. Jill Sobule - Lucy at the Gym

35. Juliana Hatfield - Feed Me

36. From First to Last - World War Me

37. Superchick - Courage

38. Mother Mother - Body

39. Garbage - Bleed Like Me

40. Wale - 90210

they’ll be scared when hugging me for the first time because I lost so much weight I don’t even look like myself anymore.

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The euphoria I’ll feel when they say I look good.

The jealousy.

The worried looks.

I want all of that.

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stress slows weight loss

It takes one day

Everyday you make progress

One day of eating 500 calories is progress.

It’s 1500 calories burned

That’s 0.4 lbs lost

2 more of these and it’s more than one pound of fat g o n e

It’s only small progress

But the small builds the big

In the end everything is about small things

Everything in the universe is made of the smallest thing- an atom

And the universe is huge