unrequested starter for Siuanย @coeurexposeโ because feels.ย
Will of living had vanished. A few pieces of bread within the last days in that inn, perhaps two cups of water, and that was all the Cairhien had been able to swallow, or else the woman found herself on the four throwing out the remaining of another life.ย
Her cloak enveloped her from head to toe, she couldnโt seem to find any heat anywhere - even baths didnโt find a way to warm her up. Moiraine couldnโt find any bright light in her life right now. Like an addict, she had tried many times to reach the true source, but failed every single time. Every failing brought a tear to her eyes. But she started, over and over again, until she lost it - was it madness ? She knew exactly what it was, it was simply driving her crazy not to access the One Power anymore. Any Aes sedai would deeply suffer from that missing piece inside of them.ย
Watching through the dirty window, her look lost in the vague, she could have been standing there for hours, who knew now. She had lost track of time as well. Moiraine wasnโt one to give up, but she couldnโt find a purpose in her life. She was unworthy of everything. A common human, powerlessโฆ even the lowest Aes Sedai could teach the source. And she couldnโt anymore.ย
When the door opened, she hadnโt heard steps coming from the stairs, nor felt the presence. A useless woman. At first she had thought it was Lan, the man kept checking on her three times a day, and each time she asked him to leave. But it was different, the steps felt lighter. Glancing over her shoulder, she gasped ; the Amyrling Seat was standing in the middle of that poor room. Her eyes watered immediately when she met hers. She should make a curtsy, rules of Tar Valon applied everywhere. Siuan looked dazzling. She was shining bright from her entire being. The former blue Ajah clenched her jaw, ready to burst into tears. However Moiraine looked away, hiding a little more into her cloak, shameful.ย โWhat are you doing here ?โ
