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gonna be my final year

I’ve tried hanging, od and cutting (I know this was silly). I want the drugs they use for people on death row I think that would be best. 

If you could help manifest my death please message me I find I am usually to cowardly to actually fulfill this goal. Ive tried many times each time getting very close but always failing.

Ultimately I am alone no one will be there for me no one will see me I will manifest the end of my life hopefully soon and I will fall into death by myself. I wish I had been born into a different body, a better life, a safer self but was not. I was born under these circumstances with these sets of rules and regulations and the collaboration of these things mostly out of my control makes me no longer want to be on this plane. I come so close to feeling ok but never really do and I feel like my pain hurts other people constantly and I know it has. I wish I could have done something better done something different.