A draft horse in space

Some  sketches i did today on stream

my world. my life. my work.

its just a hobbie

Progress so  far on Sailor Jupiter fan art. I am taking a break for now might get back to this and finish it. Might not. Either way I am very happy with this.

doing some art on stream Twitch.tv/palandrose1987

Palandrose Endgame

one hell of a setup...... 

SPAAAAAAACCCCCCEEEEEE DRAAAAAAAFT. space.... a horse in space..... 

more work on my Belgian Percheron draft cross fursona

Progress on my Zarya pony pic.  Started out as a random furry pic then became well... what we see before us. I still have work to do so that means more twitch creative streams! All work was done wile on stream: www.twitch.tv/palandrose1987

My fursona, aka the draft that flies through space

Derpy stole my chair

Yet another one gone. I try to sleep but my mind won't let me. I try to shut the thoughts out, they won't let me. I cry in hopes it will sooth me and yet I lay here weeping and still hurt. I am lost. I do not know where to go or how to seek help. Times like this I wish the fungus had taken me. That it had snuffed my flame and saved me this pain. At times like this I also debate other options and only shy away because they lack honor. I hate being so lost. I hate being in such pain and confusion. This life I live... the choices I have made... the situation's I have survived. It takes a toll on a human, and I feel my energy and ability to cope is gone. I feel so empty. I just want it to stop. I just want my mind to stop replaying things, for it to stop beating me down. Ones mind is a uniquely cruel thing. It tells you that you can do great things, and when you are not to achieve theme and fail, it loves to beat you down for it. I try to stop it. I try to tell my self I am handsome that I am worthy and that I can get the things I want. That I can handle this. As I do this my mind loves to shut me down and say I am not and can not. I try day in and day out to cope but as time goes by I keep failing to. I do not know what to do any more. I am honestly so lost and scared.... so much so I'm rambling about it on Tumblr of all places.

I hate what I have become. I hate how you stole my self confidence. I hate how I allow my self to be tore up by some one who never cared. I hate that how my mind is all twisted. I hate what I have become. I hate the choices I made that led me to you back then and I hate how you keep popping into my head. I hurt. I'm tired of hurting. I am tired of feeling inadequate. I try day in and day out to rebuild but I can't. I hate this. I hate this whole situation.